"I've always admired you, Satou-senpai. For as long as I can remember." Su let her feeling spill out. To her, it seemed like a stream of romantic sugar was flowing from her lips. But Satou saw it as a wicked curse. "Ever since the first time we've ever talked. Not for a moment have I ever stopped watching you or adoring you! The whole time I've known you, I've always been curious as to why you're such a heavenly person. Curious as to how you were made the way you are." Su walked past Satou, rambling on and on about her 'love' for Satou. She turned to her, smiling.
"Satou-senpai, how did the universe come to create someone as ethereal as you?" Su looked deeply into Satou's ominous red eyes. The reflection held the image of Su's bag, decorated with the exact same ornaments on Satou's bag. Nothing was out of place. It was like a copy.
"Mitori-senpai? Ah, what did you say?" Shoko spoke into her phone. Her manager's voice had been inaudible due to a train passing by. "Satou's living space? Well, Satou is quite popular. Stalkers are a pretty common thing for her. She probably just doesn't want her address to be so clearly written on paper, in plain sight....Oh, yes. I have visited her home once. But no one came to the door even after I rang the doorbell. Although, it did seem like someone was inside.."
"You were the one who rummaged around in my cabinet, weren't you?" Satou asked in a calm voice. Su looked at her, a small smile on her face. She was as steady and as cool as can be. "I've always hated myself. I'm such a plain girl, and I'm so clumsy. Nothing ever goes my way in my life." the girl's expression brightened up as she held her bag to her chest. A bright aura suddenly surrounded her and she smiled widely at her beloved Satou. "That's why I'm trying so hard to be the same as you, Satou-senpai!" she cried joyfully, seeing her obsessive nature as nothing but a romantic way to express her feelings of admiration. Satou stared at her with a blank look.
"This bag really cost me a lot, you know? I searched non-stop for all the things you had and bought them. If I couldn't find something, I'd make it myself." everything around Su darkened. Gone was the innocence she had once surrounded herself with. It was all sinister now.
"I even bought the same makeup! I copied your way of doing it, too. I work the same shifts as you, I bought the same handkerchief as you. I even bought the socks and underwear that you wear." she exclaimed in her same happy voice. But everything dropped. Her face of joy, as well as her sanity. Her eyes were wide and devoid of emotion. All Satou could see was rage. "It's still not enough for me. I can't attend the same school that you do. And our hairstyles, my hair is still too short for the adorable one you have." she gritted her teeth, bitterness filling her heart. "And I have no idea what I dream of doing in the future." Su concluded in a harsh, angry voice.
"That's why I thought I would at least try and live the same way you do, have identical living spaces. That's why I found your resume and went through it. But it seems to me, Satou-senpai, that no one is living in the address that you wrote down." the girl bent down and tilted her head, giving Satou a good view of her deranged brown eyes. "Satou-senpai, why aren't you telling people where you really live? Would it trouble you if you told me?" she asked, no longer in a lovingly sweet tone, but now in a harsh, demanding one. Satou's eyes widened slightly. "Satou-senpai, you don't have to hide anything from me. I want to know everything I possibly can about you! It's because I love you so dearly!" she whispered. Satou could hear her again. That godforsaken voice of her aunt. Laced within Su's voice like venom. "Satou-chan, this is also love." she heard her whisper sadistically. It filled Satou's mind and heart up with disgust.
'Shut your mouth.' she thought to herself darkly. Still, the voices continued to pester her, calling her name and saying all kinds of things. "Satou-senpai, I won't tell anyone. Satou-senpai!" Su continued to call out Satou's name, desperate to know even the littlest detail about her. Satou wanted the voices to just shut up. She didn't want Su to tell her that she loved her, and she didn't want her aunt to try and teach her about love. Bitter. It was all she could feel. A bitter sting in her heart. Making her see red. She reached out her hand towards the wide-eyed Su. 'It feels too bitter. Shut up. Just shut up!' Satou thought, grabbing Su and pushing her backwards.
Before Su could even realize that Satou was touching her, she felt those soft lips that she had always fantasized about on hers. Shock overtook her completely and she let out a high squeak. She felt Satou's knee ride up her skirt, pressing her against the wall further. Her hands were being held firmly, pinned against the wall by Satou. Su let out a few more sounds of struggles, unable to process the absurdity of the situation, as well as the sweetness of Satou's lips. Once it hit her, once Su realized that the girl she was infatuated with for long, the girl she had always admired more than anything in the world, the girl she was desperately in love with was kissing her, a high-pitched gasp escaped her and she tried to say her name, but her voice and the movement of her lips were completely smothered by Satou pushing herself onto her more. They stood for a while, shuffling and melting into each other's lips. Then, Satou pulled away, leaving a string of saliva in between them. Su's eyes were littered with tears, her face flushed red. Satou let out a quiet sigh. Her red eyes glazed over to her hands, clutching onto Su's tightly.
"Su-chan, your fingers are so thin and adorable. You're such a petite, skinny girl, you feel so soft against me when I hug you. You being who you are is why I love and adore you." Satou's voice was velvety and sweet, it was so pleasant to Su. "Love? You love me!? That- That can't be! There's no way such a lovely, godlike person like you could ever love a klutz like me!" Su stammered, blushing madly. "Why do you think that? I think it's adorable that you're getting so flustered over me saying what I feel." Satou's lips curled into a small, amused smile.
Her nimble fingers tugged against Su's uniform, undoing the small red ribbon. "I have no use for this world. I'm a defiant person. There's just no way that anyone could ever love a plain and worthless person like me! That's why I've always wanted to be like you. You're kind, and sweet, and perfect. This world doesn't deserve a blessing like you!" Su ranted, not being able to comprehend anyone holding feelings of love for her. She couldn't believe it. Not as the girl she was. People surely couldn't love a girl like her. They'd love her if she was more like Satou. But just as she thought of this, Satou's voice seeped into her ears once more. "Then I couldn't love you if you do that. You're lovely and perfect just the way that you are now, Su-chan."
It felt like she had opened her eyes for the first time. Hearing those honey-coated words fall from the lips of the girl she adored with her whole heart turned her whole world around. "The way you were brought into this world. You don't have to try and be like anyone else. You never have to grow up and mature, because you're fine as you are now, Su-chan." Satou's smooth hands ran all over Su's body, sliding up the girl's purple skirt. Su shivered when she felt those hands slide up her shirt. The feeling of Satou's cold hands gracing her skin was so overwhelmingly euphoric. Satou leaned her head against Su's neck, her breath fanning Su's skin in a frighteningly pleasurable manner. "Even if you're not the smartest in the world, you don't have to change yourself in any way. I think you're just fine." she spoke. Su felt like she was falling into a confusing world of sweetness and bright lights, Satou holding her gently and dipping her. Her dim red eyes flicked across Su's entire body. "I will be the one to love you. Just me." Satou spoke in the sweetest voice that Su has ever heard. It made the girl fall onto the floor in tears.
Tears plopped onto the floor. "That's so unfair, Satou-senpai. She brought her hand up to try and wipe the endless tears that were dribbling down her face. "I can't...I can't say no to something that makes my whole existence light up!" she sobbed. Satou looked at her, smiling gently. She was glad that she was able to sort Su's problem out and make her stop obsessing over being just like her. But she still felt angry. Su tried to interfere with her life. For that, she felt angry.
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𝐔𝐧𝐭𝐢𝐥 𝐃𝐞𝐚𝐭𝐡 𝐃𝐨 𝐔𝐬 𝐀𝐩𝐚𝐫𝐭 | 𝐒𝐚𝐭𝐨𝐮 𝐌. 𝐱 𝐑𝐞𝐚𝐝𝐞𝐫
أدب الهواة(𝐈𝐧 𝐭𝐡𝐢𝐬 𝐀𝐔, 𝐒𝐡𝐢𝐨 𝐰𝐢𝐥𝐥 𝐛𝐞 𝐥𝐢𝐯𝐢𝐧𝐠 𝐰𝐢𝐭𝐡 𝐀𝐬𝐚𝐡𝐢 𝐚𝐧𝐝 𝐡𝐞𝐫 𝐦𝐨𝐭𝐡𝐞𝐫. 𝐘/𝐍 𝐰𝐢𝐥𝐥 𝐛𝐞 𝐭𝐡𝐞 𝐬𝐚𝐦𝐞 𝐚𝐠𝐞 𝐚𝐬 𝐒𝐚𝐭𝐨𝐮.) (𝐁𝐚𝐬𝐢𝐜𝐚𝐥𝐥𝐲, 𝐇𝐚𝐩𝐩𝐲 𝐒𝐮𝐠𝐚𝐫 𝐋𝐢𝐟𝐞, 𝐛𝐮𝐭 𝐒𝐚𝐭𝐨𝐮 𝐦𝐞𝐞𝐭𝐬...
