Wikigirl 2 //PJM

Chapter 25

All our lives there are so many things people get scared of. Insects, closed places, other people, the unknown. Yet fears aren't always external. Sometimes the thing we fear is within us and sometimes we fear things we don't have at all, nor we can see them anywhere else. We fear our own emotions for they can make us lose control and get out of the persona we build ourselves to be. We fear the feelings others could awaken in us and most importantly we fear the feelings they might never return.

The fear of love was something along those lines. For what was frightful about something so sweet, warm and endearing as love was? Love itself is too welcoming and kind to scare anyone however people like you, were not afraid of love itself. You weren't afraid of love but you were afraid of not being loved.

Loving and not getting it back can turn that sweetness and bliss of love into a nightmare. It can make that medicine that made your life bright, into poison with a simple change of the dose. If you love too much you will get shattered. If you are reserved in love you will always feel unfulfilled and if you don't love at all, you might as well have never lived. Love was so essential yet complicated and even if you had it, you should know how to hold it and use it in the right amount. Give as much as you get back, otherwise, you will be the one ending up with a scar. And you knew that well.

Love was as beautiful and wanted as it was dangerous and cruel, for one misstep could ruin your heart. It could wither all joy that ever existed within you. It could turn a healthy flower to its death and a dying one to its lively glory. Love was a double-edged sword and whoever was to be crazy enough to ask for it, should be prepared to face the unknown and take the possible hit of either side of her.

And maybe you were just not brave enough or not strong enough, to taste that bitter side of that blade again. You had sworn that you would never lay your heart on anyone's hands again because none could be trusted enough yet looking at him, you couldn't help but be foolish. A desire for him to be that exception rising within you.

After some seconds that you were staring at him, speechless and imprisoned to your own thoughts, Jimin left his eyes to travel to your lips again and allowed his hand to pull your body closer again, from your waist and you just kept looking at him, uttering nothing but a soft breath that escaped your lips.

"Did you hate it?" He whispered as he left his forehead resting on yours and tilted his head slightly, bringing his lips ready for another kiss, as his craving for you had not subsided. However, he couldn't help but notice the panic on your face and the way you had frozen in realization after that kiss you shared.

A kiss that had functioned as a key for him that had unlocked his fear of getting closer to you and exposing himself and had brought to the surface a veil of determination to pursue you romantically, with all he got.

"I-...no" You managed to whisper back at him, your eyes half closed as the close proximity and his breaths hitting against your lips had managed to hypnotise you again and had hazed your fear with shots of desire.

"I am glad." He left his lips to brush with yours as he spoke in a low whisper and you left your hands to travel up his shoulders and around his neck once again, your head tilting slightly to the side unconsciously to give him access to kiss you again. 

"This shouldn't have happened." You uttered just as he brushed his lips against yours softly again and the feeling had your eyes close slowly, as an earning for more of him got you in its claws.

"If we are gonna pretend this never happened, might as well make sure my acting skills don't go to waste for nothing." Was all he said as he allowed himself to capture your lips once more, in a slow sensual kiss that had you digging your fingers into his hair.