Chemistry Of Lust

CHAPTER 10

I take a sip of my wine and it's fucking awesome. I love how yesterday was well spent with Derek and I love how today is unfolding so far but there's few things that's been bugging me.

 One is that Derek's been making me feel different this time, something I shouldn't feel, I guess. I am developing some feelings for him that are intimidating me. I like how he flirts with me or how we accidentally touch each other.

I assure myself that it's just because I met him after so long and also because I have my adrenaline rush bouncing nowadays due to mine and Edward's activities. But is it possible he has feelings for me? I think to myself taking a sip of my wine. Well, we'll know one day or  the other.

The other thing that's been bugging me is Derek leaving. Now that he came back, I somehow feel closer to him and now he'll eventually leave again. I mean I know how hypocrite I sound because not so long ago I explained to Derek that distance can't separate us but I decided to leave the part where it can make us lose touch. This will make me sad all over again. Everything's fucked up right now.

"Earth to Candy?" Derek snaps his fingers in front of me.

 "Ummm....yeah?" I ask looking back up at Derek, coming back to reality as I set now empty wine cup on table. 

"What are you over thinking now?" Derek places his hands on table leaning a bit closer to me as he sees right through me.

 "Nothing." I lie trying to sound as cool as I can. "Candy...." Derek says giving me a look like he will rip open my mind and know everything if I don't tell him myself, "....I know you more than you know yourself. Now spill it."

I sigh deeply because I know he's right. "It's just you just came back after 2 years, and we've connected again so quickly but now you'll leave again, I'll be so sad and lonely again." I explain leaving the first part of my over thinking. I place my hands on the table mirroring Derek's stance.

He holds both of my hands with his and speaks with nothing but honesty in his eyes, "Okay Ms. Hypocrite, I know what you mean and that is why I couldn't say goodbye when I first left because I couldn't bear the pain of leaving behind the best part of my life and I know how stupid and immature that sounds. But now we are more mature which is enough and the most important thing which will not allow us to let silly things like distance or basically any big thing come between us or stop us. We have to trust ourselves and our friendship to make everything work. With a little bit of trust and maturity, everything will be just fine."

I look into Derek's eyes and all I see is honesty, love and maturity. Just as I am about to speak the water comes back with our food in his hands looking down at the table. Suddenly, Derek and I look at each other and realize we are still holding hands.

 We stop, allowing the waiter to put down our dishes. He starts to serve but Derek stops him and says, "Thank you but we will help ourselves." He gives a slight smile, nods and leaves.

"Thank you Derek, I believe you, I love you." I say as a few happy tears fall of my face.

 "I know. I love you, too baby." I laugh as he called me baby. "Me calling you baby made you laugh; I am sure, because 'I love you' is frequent. So tell me why did you laugh at that but not before you start eating because I know you are hungry." I do as he said and soon he starts eating too. I decide to answer his question with truth which will be quite fun.

"I laughed because first, people probably think we are a corny couple." I say laughing and eating.

 "Well, who cares what they think. Now, tell me the real thing." Derek says with his mouth full which makes me smile at his carefree nature.