𝐓𝐡𝐞 𝐆𝐞𝐦𝐢𝐧𝐢 𝐂𝐨𝐯𝐞𝐧 | 𝐊𝐚𝐢 𝐏𝐚𝐫𝐤𝐞𝐫

Chapter Twenty Nine

[The Lovers Ball]

KAI'S POV

A date- she has a date to the lover's ball. Who the hell is this date.

I thought with a blunt in between my fingers and stress overwhelming my features like an itch I can't get rid of no matter how much I scratched-It will stay there, setting my skin on fire until I can't take it anymore and I do something I'll regret.

I'd rather not feel emotions, but they greet me with open arms. They've come back to ruin my life, and once again, the world is always against me. My luck sure runs short like a never-ending cycle of misery. My misery.

Putting out the smoke in my blunt and tossing it to the side, I sat back on my bed with wonder in my eyes.

Imagine what she would be like with someone other than me: Will they hold her hand? Give her flowers? Kiss her? Be a better man?

I grunt at each thought, with darkness beaming within me. The picture of hurting this guy-even killing him was playing on a loop in my head. But I knew well enough those thoughts were wrong, yet they felt so right.

I guess it's a comforting magnesium one that sank into my soul and calmed me down. It made me remember that I can take control whenever I want. I have the power to get what I want.

The smile that met my features was wicked, and my impulsive nature was waiting for my single to let it loose. However, I was brought back to reality at the sound of muffled voices outside my door, slowly fading as they moved down the hall, and I was desperate to make my fantasies a reality.

To grab a knife and stab the asshole who thinks he can take her away from me, but before I do, I will shield her from the monster who wants nothing but sex with her when I want her more than that.

I want to hold her and see her eyes shine when she speaks.

And he won't want that.

My eyes darted over to my nightstand as I stared between the cracked drawers, knowing exactly where my knife was and ready to get it.

My hand was itching for it, but the emotions went away, like the speed of light in the end. One minute I wanted to rip the mystery guy's throat out, and the next, it was like my emotions went out the window.

I couldn't feel anything anymore.

My brows frown in confusion as if this wasn't a similar feeling I've had since I was a child because it was. It's just something I will never get used to. The overwhelming feelings eat me away like an addict before it fades away like icy cold water running down my body. Numbing me entirely so I couldn't feel a thing.

Overdrive is what I call it.

And now I turn on my side and stare out my window. Ignoring everything and everyone as I fall into a deep sleep knowing that when I wake up? I wouldn't know what to expect from myself.