𝐓𝐡𝐞 𝐆𝐞𝐦𝐢𝐧𝐢 𝐂𝐨𝐯𝐞𝐧 | 𝐊𝐚𝐢 𝐏𝐚𝐫𝐤𝐞𝐫

Chapter Thirty Seven

[Silences Causes Chaos]

AUTUMN'S POV

It's been two weeks since Kai turned 22, yet no merge has happened. Joshua keeps putting it off, saying there's no celestial event occurring for the merge to take place, but I know the real reason.

And poor Kai is losing his patience, making me feel worse than I already do. Sometimes I built up the courage to tell him, but I always chicken out. I shouldn't because how long can Joshua put it off before Kai realizes what he's doing? I'm scared to answer that question myself.

Not only is that happening, I still haven't gotten my magic back, no matter how many times I try and connect to nature. It's like it doesn't want me. . .the hardest days are when I sit in front of a candle and watch as nothing happens when I try lighting it.

These past few weeks have been tough, and I've cried often. Thankfully, Kai's been a constant source of support, doing everything in his power to help me forget the loss. It works like a charm, but when he's not around, I'm left to face it alone.

I wonder if Kai's fed up with me; maybe he enjoys going home. Way to be insecure Autumn. . .you always have to make yourself feel bad. I wish I could just shut those thoughts out and say how great I am, even without magic, but then I think - what if Kai doesn't think I'm special anymore? What if magic made me desirable?

I stare at the candle before me, holding back the tears wanting to escape from my eyes. Exhaling deeply, I push the candle away and sit back on the floor, leaning my head on the couch. "Don't cry Autumn. You're alive. That's all that matters."

Once the sadness settled down, I got up in need for some air. I've been cramped in this tiny living room for days. That's not healthy for anyone. Even introverts should go out from time to time.

Maybe a coffee run will brighten my mood.

I put my converse on by the door and grab my bag from the coat hanger before leaving my apartment. While walking down the stairs, I take a hair tie from my bag and put my hair up in a ponytail.

The weather had changed into hot humidity, and if you knew anything about my hair and humidity, you would know it makes my hair frizzy and puffy. I wish I was one of those girls with perfect hair; not even a raindrop would ruin their hair.

As I unlocked my car, I entered and threw my bag on the passengers seat. Turning on my car, I wasted no time turning on the air conditioning and radio. Driving off once my seatbelt was on.

It's been a while since I've stepped foot in Portlands Coffeehouse. Man, could I kill for a caramel macchiato. . .and a tasty banana macadamia muffin. The thought made my mouth water.

As I thought more about the yummy treats, my heart skipped a beat as I relived the other events taken place on that rainy day. Man, was Kai a real ride. .how he tricked me with his charm to forgive him, how we danced, how we kissed under the rain.