JAYKAY IMAGINES - jjk & you 💖

needing you

CONCEPT:  You're pregnant and JK is always out & about while you were constantly stuck at home. All he wanted to do was somehow ignore and run away from his responsibilities as a father-to-be. He felt restricted and didn't want to be wasting away his days doing nothing but staying at home when his friends were still out there doing what they wanted.
Though what he never put into thought was that while he was living his life the way he wanted it, you were struggling and longing for just the simple presence of that one person: him.

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"Did you wanna come take a walk with me and the little one this afternoon? The weather is so pretty outside!"

"I would but—"

"Oh okay then maybe we can go for ice cream tonight after dinner like you mentioned yesterday—"

"Oh that... I'm not sure babe, Yugyeom and I were going to—"

It was always like this. One excuse after the other. You rarely get to spend time with him and it was almost as if he purposely didn't want to.

You sigh in frustration, "Jungkook all you ever do is go out!! You're never home anymore and all you want to do is be with your friends!!"

You were startled by your own sudden outburst and so was he.

"I have things I have to do babe.. you know how it is by now! If it's not meetings, it's rehearsals or whatever!"

"Oh don't act like everything is all work-related Jungkook. I know you haven't even been doing much but hanging out with everyone. You seem to forget that there's 3 of us now and I'm scared that this is how it's going to be when our baby comes out!"

"That's not true!"

"Yes it is! Can't you just admit it? If you don't want to be with me anymore then
Just tell me—just tell US and we'll leave you alone and give you that freedom you seem to be longing for!"

"That's not it Y/N."

"Then what is it?"

Jk sighs heavily, already looking defeated.
"I've just been feeling.. trapped  alright?"

This triggers you instantly, causing an outburst that even he didn't expect. "AND YOU THINK I DON'T?!?!
Sure it's a big change for you becoming a dad and all but Jungkook what about how I'm feeling too?!
For god sakes I'm the one carrying a human inside of me! I feel so fucking moody all the time, I never know what I want to eat every second and any and every freaking movement I make is both a struggle and a hassle!
Not to mention I look in the mirror feeling so insecure because I feel and look like a freaking balloon while you hang out with some of your pretty girl friends!"

You tried to catch your breath as just rambling was tiring you out. He tries to get closer to you but you shoo him away.

"UgHH!!! I don't even know what I'm going on about anymore but I just don't know what to do anymore Jk!! And the fact that you're never home whenever I need someone just makes it worst. You get to do everything and anything you want while I'm left at home like i'm imprisoned. I'm about to give birth in a few weeks from now and I can't even remember the last time I spent any of my time with you.
You send me your hyungs as if to somehow fill in the void and you think I don't notice it all?! Jungkook I just want to feel that you're here for me because you WANT to and not just because you HAVE to. Without you it's like every single day feels like 10x longer than the other and I can't help but feel so lonely all the time and I just—-"
You couldn't hold your tears in any longer and start sobbing.

Concern washes over Jk's face as he starts to worry about you. "Hey hey please don't cry.. All this sadness can't be good for you baby please calm down!"

You just kept sobbing uncontrollably while he tries to console you without touching you.

"I'm sorry I didn't know you were feeling like this.."

"Because you've never asked!!"

Guilt takes over him and he begins to cry as well; not knowing what else to do or say to make you feel better because nothing could do so anymore. The damage was done; All that time he wasted not being around you just because he was being too much of a pussy to face his new reality of being a soon-to-be father.
"I'm so sorry Y/N.. I guess I was so busy thinking too much about myself.."

He tries to hold you again and this time you let your guard down because you suddenly felt some pity for him too. You were a moody mess after all.

"I'm sorry I didn't mean to get so upset Jk.. there's just so much going on in my body that I can't control. My emotions are a roller coaster and ugh.. how I wish you men knew how this all feels."

"I'd take all the pain for you if I could baby.."

You sigh. "I'm sorry about holding you back Jungkook.. It's not that I constantly want to keep you here but you know.. seeing you other than just my appointments would have been nice. And I'm sorry.. I didn't mean to get so over dramatic about every little thing that bothered me. We can forget it happened and you can go on with your plans today.. it's okay now babe, I think i've let out all my rants already." You laughed shyly, realizing how much you just blew up a few minutes ago.

"No no please don't apologize!! This is all my doing.. I feel so stupid and useless." He hides his face in his palms, wanting to cry about his regrets.  "I'm really sorry, I never considered what you were feeling.."

You remove his hands from covering his face and pat his cheek. "Don't beat yourself up about it. It's done and I should have understood what you were going through too!"

"Babe stop it. It shouldn't have even been about me at all. These times it should be all about you and I'm really sorry baby I can't stress it enough I—"

"Stop saying sorry to me. Say sorry to the baby!" You gave him a small smile and pouted as you pointed down to your belly.

He gives you an apologetic smile and kneels down in front of you, hugging your baby belly.
"I'm sorry nae sarang... i'm sorry daddy hasn't been around for you and mommy. He's just been acting like a child lately— like a total coward that's all. He's an idiot. He was so busy thinking about himself and never thought about how hard you're making it for mommy too.. which by the way...sorry buddy, i'm not saying it's your fault but... you're definitely triggering most of it for her."

You playfully slap his head, and pat your belly as if consoling your little one. "Don't listen to daddy baby, he's just looking for someone to blame."

"She's right... and a little word of advice for you kiddo: mommy's are always right.." he whispers and you both laugh.
"But for real this time, I promise from now until forever or whenever you need me, that i'll always be here for you and for mommy. Hang in there little guy.. we can't wait to see you."

You started sniffling; crying again.

He looks up at you with his sincere puppy eyes  and stands back up to wipe your tears. He cups your face before apologizing once more.
He rests his forehead against yours and kisses you. 
"I love you Y/N and i'll never make you think otherwise."