BILLIE-HALES

Chapter 16

CHAPTER SIXTEEN

Silence fills the room. All I can hear is the sound of my heart. I also hear the ticking clock on the wall, but it's mostly my heart while it's threatening to break free from my chest. I'm shaking my whole body is in panic mode, but my mum holds on. She's holding her arm around my shoulder and with her free hand, she takes hold of mine. The one that's holding into Zealie's stone.
The silence is killing me though, I mean, even a grunt would be great here. You know, just to let me know that I've not liked them by giving them a heart attack, but it's Angel that's the first to speak. And what he says brings more tears to my eyes.

"How far along," he asked.
I just about manage to whisper out telling him I'm about five weeks.
He's nodding his head while his brows nip together, looking like he's really thinking hard about something.

"Right, okay. Well, you still have time to get that sorted, but in the meantime, I'm going to kill this fucker!"
I gasp in shock even my mother does too. My whole body jumps I jump up in a panic telling him no.
"What do you mean, no? Billie, I won't allow him to get away with this! You're a child for fuck's sake! I'd warned him and now the fucks going to pay for hurting you."
He turns to leave again, but I grab hold of his arm while once again telling him no.
"You can't go after him you'll get yourself locked up. And as for still having time Well, I'm assuming, you're talking about me ending this? Well, I'm sorry, but that's not happening dad. I'm keeping this baby I'm going ahead with the pregnancy. I don't expect you to understand or agree with it, but this is happening now. I'm pregnant and I know it's not ideal, but Zeal wants to be there too. He told me in his letter. He told me he wants to be a dad. I'm sorry, but I'm not taking that away. Not now, not ever. And before you say it..." I'm stopping him from interrupting again when I tell him, I'm not getting back with him.

"I can't because the way I'm feeling right now, I want to kill him. Sadly though, I won't do it. I won't allow you or anyone else to hurt him either. Yes, he'd messed up, but he wants this baby too. I won't deny him not ever. And neither will you."
His eyes are completely wide and I can see that he wants to ignore what I'm telling him. Only my mum stands by my side surprising me when she takes hold of my hand giving it a little supportive squeeze.

"It's time we listened to Angel. I don't want to lose her again not after everything. We can do this we've had tougher times than this to bear. So the least we can do is support our only daughter. You know, just like my dad had eventually, done with us when he'd eventually, found out that I was pregnant with her. Let's not allow what happened to us, happen to her too, yeah?"

He's just standing there staring at her while completely blocking me out when I hold my hand out to him. He just shakes his head and walks out. Yet before he closes the door behind him, that's when I call out to him.

"Please, dad. Don't hate me, please. Don't shut me out, I couldn't bear that. Not with you."
He sighs and then rests his head against the door.
"Baby-Girl, I could never hate you. I just. Just, give me a moment to soak this in. I promise I'll never shut you out not ever. I love you. I love you with all my heart, no matter what."

Eventually, he left the room. That's when I turn to look at Lucius. He's still standing there not saying anything which is quite unsettling.

"D-dad, I-I'm sorry. I-I'd never wanted to disappoint you."
He's shaking his head as he finally pulled himself out of his stunned state.
"Never, never, Billie, you could never disappoint me."
Upon hearing his words, he opened his arms. This made me, smile before I gladly accepted his warm hug. I'm practically squeezing the life out of him, just as he is, with me.

"Dad, I love you. I love you all, so much."
He squeezes me again before placing a gentle kiss on my head.
"I love you too, sweetheart, always."
"Billie, please. Please, just talk to me. I'm sorry. I'm so fucking sorry. I know I've fucked up. Baby, I swear I'll make this right. Just please, talk to me.
You know you can't shut me out forever we're gonna have to talk about this. I have my rights too yes I'm kinda messed up right now, but it's with good reason baby.
I lov-"