Chasing A Masungit Man

Chapter 34

A/N: THE ITALICIZED PART IS A FLASHBACK FROM LORRAINE'S PAST. ENJOY READING ☺️

Hanggang ngayon na sa isip ko pa rin yung nangyari kahapon. Masiyado akong nagdesisyon nang pabigla-bigla. I should have ask for time, pero wala na akong magagawa nandyan na. Napabuntong hininga naman ako. Sa tuwing sumasagi sa isip ang mga bagay na may kinalaman kay Lee ay naiirita na lang ako. Nevertheless, I don't want to treat him unjustly.

Naalala ko na naman si Sungit na biglang sumulpot at bumusina kahapon. Ano naman kayang dahilan at bigla-bigla na lang siyang bumusina? Baka siguro ang tagal na niyang naghihintay nainip na siguro kaya ganun. Andoon siguro siya para sunduin ako. But I don't want to assume and conclude. Iwinaksi ko sa isipan ko ang mga nangyari kahapon at humiga na lang ulit.

Sumagi din sa isip ko yung sa nangyari noong isang araw, sa mga nasabi ko sa babae na nakaaway ko. Hindi ko naman intensyon na masabihan siya ng hindi maganda nadala lang siguro ako ng galit. Dahil kay Eja

Do I still really know my self? That's the question that is running on my mind right now. For the past year I don't seem to recognize myself anymore. I feel languid. It's still difficult for me to eventually escape my miserable life due to my enormous past. I am just longing for a father's love but the thought of that ruined me every time I think of it. I want a whole family I want to experience having my dad besides me. I just want my father to love me, yet even the concept of that makes me wretched. I desire a loving family. I just want to feel a father's love, but every time I think about it, it makes me even worse. I want to know what it's like to have my dad by my side.

For others, hitting two birds with one stone But for me, it's getting damaged twice in one particular scenario, not hitting two birds with one stone. It still hurts the fact that he chose that girl over his family. I don't think I can forgive him for what he did. Every time I see him, my heart eventually rips. What I feel is just like an ocean that is difficult to find and difficult to swoop into.

I would have disowned him as my father if I had the option to. How frequently have I wished he wasn't my father? I always wish I had a father who was sensible, who could defend his family and who could love them. But since he was the one who was given to me, no matter how many times I prayed for another father, there was nothing else I could do. Since

He was the one who gave it to me, he will still be my father no matter how upside down I make the world. He is the main reason why I am here. I had a successful sperm-egg cell interaction in my mother's fallopian. The result is me. That's why I am here. I got back to my senses when someone kicked the door. The loud kick forced my brows to collide.

"What was that?" Tumayo na ako at naglakad palapit sa pinto. Nagtaka naman ako nang makita ko na akma niyang sisipain ulit ang pintuan kung hindi lang ako lumabas ay nasipa na niya ang pinto. Anong ginagawa dito ng secretary ng magaling kong Ama.

"H-hi Madam!" Tinitigan ko lang siya at hindi nagsalita. Pamilyar ang mukha niya sa akin di ko lang alam kung saan ko siya nakita.

"Ay Madam! Andito ka po pala akala ko wala ka kanina pa ako kumakatok dito. By the way, Madam, I am Herna Rose Galvarez. At your service. I am the secretary of Mr. Sen. Your father, Madam." Natigilan naman ako sa narinig ko nag-init ang ulo ko nang malaman ko kung sino ang isang ito. Kaya pala pamilyar ang mukha niya. Siya nga pala ang secretary ng magaling kong Ama. I look at her from head to toe. She's just wearing a black pants and a brown crop top it suits her petite body. She is just a small girl.

"Inform him that I don't have time to hear his rubbish explanation. You are free to leave.." Nagtitimpi na usal ko, alam ko namang pinapunta niya ang isang dito para kulitin ako na kausapin siya. Akmang isasara ko na ang pinto nang bigla niyang iharang ang katawan niya. Kaya hindi ko tuluyang nasara ang pinto.