Triangle Problem 2

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Mattheo Marvolo Riddle POV

Tom rushes out of the Hospital Wing. I'm an idiot. I shouldn't say all these. He tries. He tried to change and he did actually change. He managed to change. He became better than he could ever be.

"Think before you talk stupid" I whisper to myself and look at ceiling.

"Everything's okay?" I look at Yn and see her awake. How much did she hear? "Theo?".

"Yeah. Umm ... Yeah. Everything's fine" she looks confused and sits up.

"You're talking to me. What happened?".

"Nothing. Don't worry" I can notice the worry in her eyes but I'm not in the mood for her to tell me that I shouldn't say all these. I know that I shouldn't.

"As you wish" I should go and find Tom. Apologize to him or something anyway.

"I'll be back" she looks at me confused as I stand up and walk away quickly.

"MATTHEO?" she calls for me but I run away. I have to find Tom.

I ran over to the whole school. Nothing. I can't find him anywhere. Wait. The Astronomy Tower. I ran immediately there and climbed up. I saw him sitting there, staring at the sky. He stands up and points his wand at me as he stands up. I stay still as he finally lowers his wand and lets out a sigh. He sits back down.

"What do you want now, Mattheo?".

"To apologize".

"It's fine".

"It's not fine. I-"

"It's fine, Mattheo. Seriously. Just leave me alone".

"Tom, please".

"No. I want to stay alone".

"I'm sorry" he doesn't talk. I turn around to leave but he speaks up.

"I tried to change" he says in a low, deep voice. "I tried but I guess no one ever cared to notice".

"I did, Tom. I swear I did. I'm such an awful brother for saying all these. I was just angry. I'm sorry".

"Do you remember when ... " I wait for him to continue talking. "At the end of the 5th year when ... " I knew what he was trying to recall in my mind. "Voldemort gave you your first punishment" I could understand that his voice was slightly shaky as he was crying before and now he was trying to hide it but without much success.

"Yeah".

"Do you remember what happened afterwards?".

"I ... Do" he stands up and turns around so I can face him. Now I can clearly see the tears that he tried to wipe away from his face.

"I tried to save you, didn't I?" I just stare at him. He did. He actually did. He tried to save my life and got punished by Voldemort as well. He was unconscious for 1 whole week and after he got a punishment for being unconscious.

"Y-You did" I was ready to tear up. I have regretted everything that I said before. I shouldn't talk.

"Wasn't I always trying to save you?" a tear dropped from my eye but I didn't care about wiping it away. "Wasn't I always getting your punishments?" I just stare at him. He wipes his tears away trying to stop crying but he can't. His voice is pretty shaky at the moment.

"T-Tom, please".

"I risked everything is that I had in order for you not to be hurt and now that's the thank you? Attacking me and saying that I never cared for anyone?".

"N-No. You ... I didn't want to-"

"Haven't I given enough, Mattheo? Haven't I? I have given everything in my life in order for you to be alive, not to be hurt, to have a better life than the one that I had even though I'm the fucking younger brother" by now he was a crying mess. I couldn't say anything. He was right. I messed up. "Not that you have an amazing life but I tried" he pointed at himself. "I fucking tried my very best for you" he runs his hands through his hair messing them up. "I FUCKING TRIED MY VERY BEST" he sits down and starts crying. I'm responsible for that. I shouldn't say anything. I'm stupid.

"I'm sorry, Tom" I mean it. He knows that I mean it but he is way too hurt at the moment to forgive me.

"Leave me alone" at first I didn't. "I SAID LEAVE ME FUCKING ALONE" he lets out a cry which broke me.

"I'm sorry" he didn't reply.

I climbed down the Astronomy Tower but I didn't have the energy to go somewhere. I transfer to the library. I lock the door and put silence on. I sit down on the ground. Tears streaming down my cheeks uncontrollably. I shouldn't say anything. I shouldn't. I'm the worst brother in the world.