(Veni, Vidi, Amavi Series #1) Here With Me

04

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My heart is beating fast. My mind starts to get crazy. I don't know what to do. Nagbabadya na rin ang mga luha ko. I can't even call my Kuyas kasi nanginginig na yung hands ko. Hindi ko kayang igalaw ng maayos ang mga ito.

"G-get away from me!" I shouted at her and took a step back.

Tumawa ito na parang witch na sinabayan pa ng mga alaga niya. Their voices are hurting my ears.

"Oh no, Mayumi. Why don't YOU get away from me?" Pinaraan niya ang matutulis niyang kuko sa maputi at namumula kong pisngi. I turned my head to the other side para umiwas sa kuko niya.

"Don't touch me!" I shouted in a soft voice.

What does she mean na ako ang lalayo sa kanya? Siya nga tong paharang harang sakin.

I'm trying to be brave here even though nanginginig na ako sa takot.

Hahawakan niya sana ulit ako pero tinampal ko ang kamay niya. Nagulat ito sa ginawa ko kaya mas lalong nagalit.

"How dare you fucking slapped my hand!?" She screamed loudly and slapped my face that made my tears flow down. I didn't expect her to suddenly slapped me and I don't like screaming.

She is so like them when she screamed.

No one in my family ever screamed at me like that. My brothers and parents are taking good care of me as tender as they can. They don't scream or shout at me.

"N-no! No...get away from me!" I am becoming hysterical of what is happening. Mas lumakas ang iyak ko ng hawakan ako ng mga kasama niya ng mahigpit habang hindi ko parin binibitawan ang paper bag na hawak ko. "D-don't touch me! Please... don't touch me!" I was begging them, crying.

It's coming back. They're coming back.

No...please. Stop...

There are some few scenes flashed through my mind. Scenes that I want to forget and never remember again.

"Let go! L-let go!" My mind is in haywire. My anxiety and panic attacks are taking all over me. Pero mas hinigpitan lang nila ang hawak sa akin habang sinasampal ako ni Gabriella sa magkabilang pisngi.

"You bitch! Pa good girl ka! Inaagaw mo ang lahat sa akin! Pati yung boyfriend ko na sana dapat pero dumating ka pa!" She cupped my face with her one hand. Dahil matutulis nga ang mga kuko niya, bumabaon ito sa pisngi ko. Naging mahapdi ito dahil sa luha kong pumapatak at sa kalmot ng kuko niya.

"Dont t-touch me! Let go! Please! No! No!" Pagwawala ko habang umiiyak ng malakas. Nabitawan ko na rin ang paper bag at hindi ko na alam kung nasaan na ito pero yung sling bag ko ay nakakabit parin sa katawan ko. Hindi na rin ako makahinga ng maayos dahil sa hindi ko maintindihan na pakiramdam.

People started to flock the scene. They were not here earlier. Maybe narinig nila ang mga sigawan, but why don't they help me?

W-why are they just looking at me? Na para bang entertainment ang pinapanood nila.

Amary, where are you? Someone please? Anyone?

I was trying so hard na makawala sa hawak nila. The sudden fear that enveloped my mind and body are uncontrollable. My breathing is uneven too. Napadaosdos ako dahil sa panghihina at masakit sa dibdib dahil sa hindi ako makahinga ng maayos.

They are also trying hard to hold me back in place while Gabriella is gripping my hair while still slapping me.

I only fight back if alam kong kaya ko. I can do a cat fights and annoying others sometimes but I do have my limitations on that and there should be people around me na kilala ko. So, if things go wrong nandiyan sila para sakin. But if ganito? Cornering and unknown people are surrounding me? I feel helpless. And this sudden attack triggered my panics and anxieties that I have been trying to control ever since.