Inhliziyo Yami Yopha: My Heart Bleeds

Chapter 8

THAMSANQA

"Good evening ladies and gentlemen. Welcome to Casino Night hosted by yours truly, Samodien & Co. Before we get to carry on with the night's festivities, I'd like for us to give a round of applause to Brandon Samodien, the CEO, as he wants to share few words with us. Thank you!", the girl I've been dreaming about.

She gets off the stage looking so elegant yet sexy. I probably look like a pervert but I have never seen anyone pull off a pant-suit like she's doing right now. This is the lady who's been invading my thoughts for the past 2 months; 3 weeks; 6 days and 8 hours...but who's counting right.

"Oh why thank you Nombuso! Good evening ladies and gentlemen...", Brandon says as he gets onto the stage. I don't hear the rest of his speech as the only person I can focus on is now standing by the bar. I need to make use of this moment as I don't know when I'll get to see her ever again.

The day I saw her at that restaurant, I felt my heart skip a beat. I knew I looked like a creep when she caught me staring at her but that did not stop me from following her to the restroom. I had moved from that table she saw me sitting at and went lurking behind the walls.

She looked familiar, and no not in a sense where I might have hooked up with her before. But I felt like I've seen her in my dreams or something I'm not sure really. One thing I am positive about though is that, I need to make her mine. She looks innocent yet fiesty.

"Hi again.", I whisper out to her as I reach the side of the bar. She turns to look at me and doesn't say a word then goes back to looking at Brandon.

No woman has ever got me feeling like this before...all nervous and shit. But I'm a man on a mission here and I need to do this. So I try again and clear my throat and say, "Look I know I started off on a weird note, but can we please talk? Outside?".

She lets out a sigh and says, "Sure. But let me finish addressing the people first after my boss' speech. Is that okay with you?".

"Yes, that is okay with me.", I say. Soon after that she goes back on stage as Mr Samodien's speech has been concluded. She addresses everyone and let's us know that the fun may begin. I see her trying to buy time as she goes around to talk with people and the catering staff as well.

I let her be for the next thirty minutes or so because I reallydon't want to piss her off in any way. I'm just glad she even agreed to talk to me. Her eyes land on me as she comes my way and I can see she wants to turn back but I'm faster than her.

Reaching her, I take hold of her hand and pull her outside with me. I can feel her reluctance but I really need to get this off my chest before I never get another opportunity like this. We get to the balcony and once we out of sight, I close the sliding door.

"Look, I know I've been a jerk for the most part of our two encounters. I have no excuse for it so I'm really sorry about it. Would you please forgive me?", I say from the bottom of my heart. I hope I sound sincere to her as I do to myself.

I can tell she's having inner conflict with wanting to forgive me or just continue being mad. The former prevails as she says, "It's okay I forgive you. I just hope you learn some boundaries.  You and I aren't friends so please keep that in mind with whatever you decide on next.".

"Yes I will do that, I promise. And thank you for forgiving me. But I would like for us to become friends though."

"Okay. I don't see any problems with that."

"Good! So can we please exchange numbers. And before you say anything, friends are allowed to have each other's numbers."

She lets out such a heartfelt laugh and I must admit that it is one of the most amazing sounds I've ever heard. After a minute or so, she finally calms down and we exchange numbers. I then offer to take her home but all she said was, "So I can have a stranger know where I live? No thank you.".

That conversation was the last we had for the night as I have to get back home. We go back inside and I say my farewells to most of my acquaintances. I get in my car and bring the engine to life as I head home with a wide smile on my face. I honestly can't help it...I'm happy that tonight went great more than I had anticipated.

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Parking my car in the garage, I can see the house lights on. I know for sure that somebody's up and tonight I might just be in for a long night with arguments. I definitely don't want anything spoiling my mood right now. The time reads 23:15 pm and I guess that's not too late.

Sigh.

"Hey baby!", Nwabisa says as I enter through the kitchen door connected to the garage. I really regret ever giving her my house keys, sometimes I just really want to be alone.

"Hi Nwabisa. How can I help you?", I say placing my jacket on the chair.

"Hawu sthandwa sami (Wow my love), is that how you talk to your lover?", she says seductively. I am in no mood to entertain her but then again, she doesn't deserve to be treated badly.

"Sorry! I just really had a long night and I was hoping to get some sleep as soon as I came back."

"Oh I'm sorry baby. How about you come with me so I can release some of the tension." I take a proper look at her and I can see she's wearing a beautiful two-piece lingerie.

Nwabisa has been my girlfriend for the past two years, even though what we have has been an on-and-off thing. I can't really say I love her but I do care for her deeply. I mean there's no way I could have spent so much time with her without developing any feelings.

She is a nice girl when she wants to but she sometimes tends to be a bit crazy. I don't know what triggers it but I know for sure that if she were to find out about my liking for Nombuso, she'd go ten times more crazy.

"Come on...baby...let's... go...upstairs...and release...some...tension.", she says kissing me. I am so not in the mood for this but I really do need to take some steam off.

I know what I'm doing is wrong. Pursuing Nombuso while I have Nwabisa but I really can't help it. And if this makes me a selfish prick then I am willing to take that title.

"Okay let's go.", I say unbuttoning my shirt while Nwa and I head upstairs. I hope I don't disappoint because my mind is on the other lady in my life.

I know when the time comes, I'll have to come clean but for now, I'll just live in the moment.