Inhliziyo Yami Yopha: My Heart Bleeds

Chapter 47

Six Months Later

NOMBUSO

They say God's timing is the best, always and that we shouldn't rush him as HE has his own plans for us. I believe those words describe my life. I took my time to mourn the loss of my baby and a person who was once the love of my life.

It was so hard for me to carry on living without the people who made me feel complete. Especially the loss of my child who I never even got to bring into this world, or even hold in my arms. But all is well with my soul and I hope it is the same with Lunga and our child, may their souls rest in peace.

It is said that a person falls in love with three people in their lives and that they are all for different reasons. The first is the young love, that happens when you're still young and love somebody to the point of eventually growing apart.

For me, that was when I loved a boy in primary school until I started high school. And as much as some people wouldn't consider it true love as we were kids, but I know that it was. That is the truth because it is what I knew love to be.

Then there's the second love which is often the hardest one. Most people get hurt in this one and there's no way you would be available to avoid the hurt. It teaches us lessons and how to be strong. It involves great pain, lies betrayal, abuse and so many other things. But with me, I experienced great pain... loss.

That was Lunga for me. His death hurt me so bad I felt like death myself. One thing I appreciated was that he never hurt me in any kind of way but he loved me through and through till death.

I am so grateful though that this relationship taught me so many things, more especially how to grow. I now know what I want and need, and also what I don't need. It taught me to be more loving, cautious, considerate and appreciative of the partner I find next.

Then there's the last one, the third love. It comes blindly with no warning, but just attacks you. It is ever so silent as it creeps up on you because you didn't go looking for it. It just comes to you. This is Bonga for me.

Apparently no matter what kind of walls you put up, it will break them down. You find yourself caring for the other person without even trying. You see beauty in their imperfections and hide absolutely nothing from them. You thank the universe for them and love them from your core.

The love I feel for Bonga is indescribable but I know that it runs deep. If I could, I would choose to be one with him physically...share a body and stuff. Just kidding! But yeah, he is IT for me and I'm glad to have been blessed with him in my life.

Ever since I met Nikiwe and Gogo, my life has been going pretty well. Yes, there are mishaps here and there but things have been going well nonetheless. Gogo has restored my faith a lot more in God that I sometimes find myself wanting to go to church with her.

She doesn't force any of us to go with her and lucky for Nikiwe, she doesn't. But I on the other hand, have given it a chance and I go with her at least once after every two weeks. Every time I leave church after a sermon, I feel rejuvenated and like a weight has been lifted off of my shoulders.

Then of course, my darling sister has been nothing but a blessing. Nikiwe has been there for me through a lot these past few months and I cannot thank her enough for that. From my stay at the hospital to being with me until I recovered until now, planning my wedding.

We are actually doing touch ups, we are busy checking on what else needs to be done since the wedding is in two weeks time. It has been so stressful but with my sister's help I've been able to manage things. Bonga wanted me to get a wedding planner but I wanted to be involved in the preparations of my special day.