Inhliziyo Yami Yopha: My Heart Bleeds

Chapter 14

NOMBUSO

Kedi is helping me with making scones right now. Well... it's actually more of me helping her kind of situation. Since I satrted working I needed someone to take over this baking business and what better way than to get my new found friend in on it.

She had been complaining about her job paying less and having a lot more working hours. So I figured she could run the fort when I'm not around which is all the damn time. I didn't want to close the business down because people really relied on the pastries for breakfast mostly.

The business has been doing impressively well since she took over. This all when she wasn't even a good baker at first but after following the instructions to perfection, she is a professional. All the more reason why she deserves all the praises and I am well in my right to do so at any moment.

Clientele has grown and we are making more money. It gets a lot busier around here and I was thinking that maybe we could expand the business by finding a place that would have a lot more customers popping in. I think some kind of container in a place like Sandton or Midrand.

Not sure of the details yet but that is exactly what I want us to discuss today. I believe in fairness so it is fair we both decide on what happens in our business. Yes we are now co-owners because she does all the hard labour while I'm away.

"So tell more about this mystery man of yours!", she's says sounding way too excited for my liking.

Of course I told her about Thamsanqa. I spend a lot of time with this woman and she works from my home, so yes I am bound to trust her about almost anything. And plus she did see me getting dropped off by him that one time.

She knows a lot about almost everyone around our area I'm starting to wonder of she ever gets any rest. I asked her if she ever sleeps because it was late when he dropped me off but her excuse was that she's a light sleeper. Having no other choice, I was forced to take her word for it.

"There's nothing more to tell really. We are still getting to know each other more but just as friends. I made it clear to him that I am not looking for anything serious right now and I want to focus on myself.", I say as I finishing kneading the dough and placing it into a container.

She lifts her head as quick as thunder and looks at me like I just said something distasteful. "Na u lahleheloa ke kelello Nombuso? (Are you losing your mind Nombuso?)", she says placing her hands on her waist.

Sometimes I have a hard time understanding what she says when she speaks fluent Sesotho but right now? Oh I know for sure what she just said. I've come to realize that she's a wild card and likes living life on the edge, meaning she doesn't mind taking risks.

"No...I am not! I just don't think I'm ready for arelationship yet. I mean it was Lunga's second year death anniversary just a month ago. Am I really ready to look at other people? I don't think so.", I let out a sigh as I take a seat on one if the kitchen chairs.

"Oh Nombuso! Honestly I think you have spent a lot of time mourning for him. You guys weren't even married but you honoured him way more than any other person would have done.", she says as she takes a seat beside me.

"It doesn't feel like it Kedi!! I am trying to forget about him so I can move on but I can't. I simply can't do it!", I say feeling tears make themselves present in my eyes.

I hate crying because it makes me look and feel weak. That is an image I do not want to portray because people will end up taking advantage of my "weakness". Now here I am being vulnerable in front of someone other than myself. But I remind myself always that this is Kedi and she's seen me in tears before.