Inhliziyo Yami Yopha: My Heart Bleeds

Chapter 9

NIKIWE

Familiar with the phrase, "When it rains it pours?". Well I am because that is exactly what is happening in my life right now. I lost my job a few weeks ago and the stress of finding a new one is grating my tits for sure. Not to forget, I still owe...well you know who.

Apparently the company was retrenching some people because the business is going dry. I didn't see this one coming, more especially because there was no talk  about it. But then again no one did and, luckily for Mantwa, she wasn't fired which is a great thing.

I wouldn't wish unemployment on anyone really so I'm glad she isn't going through it. It is really tough out here and it is scary out here no lies. I'm slowly running out of options and I have health expenses to take care of.

Right now, we are dependent on Gogo's grant and I'm not sure how far that will take us. I'm thinking of turning to prostitution if all goes south. I need the cash and I'm not about to sit on the purse between my legs. Desperate times call for desperate measures.

If it ever gets to that point, I'll just have to get a good agency that will keep my interests at heart. One thing I won't let hold me back though, is people's opinions about what I choose to do with my body and my life. None of the two should concern them in any way.

Now on a less depressing note, I have more time to spend with my granny. Cindy on the other hand says I should take this as a blessing in disguise. She said I now have the opportunity to look for a job that I'll actually enjoy.

She also went on and on about how bad it sucks to go to a job you hate every morning. That was one of the valid ppints she made in why me losing that job was a great thing. And not to forget how she now has a person to go to groove with.

One thing about her though, is that she never takes things too seriously. So when I told her I camnot afford going out since I'll be broke all the time, she said I shouldn't worry about that so much. Her working did not help the situation as she said she'll pay for everything as long as I come with.

Underneath all that craziness, she's really a loving and caring person and I know she'd do anything to help out a friend. That is why I'd never let a friend like her go, she's been there for me in the good and bad times.

She works as a cashier at a supermarket in town. It doesn't pay much but it at least puts food on the table. And plus, she lives alone which is a bonus. She doesn't have that many responsibilities so she has the free will to spend her money however she likes. Grocery and toiletries are things she never runs out of because she makes sure she buys them every month, which is very responsible if you ask me.

Ubumnandi abupheli is what we say in IsiZulu. But when translated to English it simply means that fun never ends. This is a mantra that I have been living by for as long as I can remember. And I guess that is what Cindy followed today as we are going to be 'Netflix & Chilling' at my home.

I've already cooked and prepared some snacks for the night ahead. I have an amazing line-up planned on what we are going to watch tonight and I really can't wait. It's going to be great since my childhood friend will be right here with me.

"Mama, Cindy is going to sleep over tonight. Is that okay with you?", My grandma doesn't really like sleepovers but she doesn't have a choice since I'm the one that invited a friend over. She also has a soft spot for Cindy.

And yes, I do call uGogo 'Mama'. Because she is my second mother after all and she raised me to be the woman that I am today. My grandmother has helped me through a lot and I appreciate it all, there is no other woman I'd rather call mom than her.

"Yeah there is no problem. You know I really like Cindy." She's been my friend since primary. It's been scientifically proven that such friendships tend to last a lifetime. And boy I can't wait till we grow old together.