Forest Darling

Chapter 32 - Jelly fish

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Chapter 32

°Harriet(tw)

For the last 3 weeks I spent every day with Fynn and Theo. After school we drive through our and the neighboring cities and listen to music or play some car games.

I didn't tell my parents. I try to be as normal as possible. I don't feel really different anyway just empty.

Without emotions and without a desire for anything. I avoid physical touch pretty good. It's harder at school then at home.

I don't want to be touched, it hurts, it feels like someone lights me on fire and the flashbacks get out of control.

During lunch time I sit under the grandstands at the hockey field.

Alone

Only Fynn knows about the thing but I don't want to steal more time from him so I didn't tell him where I eat my lunch. He still asks every time he gets the chance.

I avoid anyone else, I don't want to be near the monster. Luckily, we only have one subject together but every time I enter the room my hands shake and my hard beats so fast, I always feel dizzy.

Fynn told me what happened before I meet Aiden and the monster at lunch. It was hard to hear that it could have turned out differently if I had charged my phone.

I would never blame myself, but I cried a lot when I realized that one thing could have changed my whole day. 

The school bell rings and I pack my things and make my way to my biology class.

I share it with Bella. I haven't told her yet and if she wasn't so close with the monster, I probably wouldn't do it, but I don't want that the same thing happens to her.

We sit alone at the last row.

"I need to talk to you."

"What's going on? You don't even sit with us anymore. Fynn is gone too."

I swallow the lump in my throat.

"Et..." I force the nauseous feeling away. "Ethan is not who you think he is. You should distance yourself from him."

She looks at me confused.

"What do you mean?"

"When you were sick, he and I wrote notes and we met a few times and I thought we were reaching the next level. But he,...." My hands start to sweat and I can feel that the trembling slowly starts. "...he touched me inappropriately."

Take a deep breath

Don't think about it

You're fine

"What do you mean, you and Ethan were about to reach the next level?" I'm taken aback that that's the part that's bothers her.

"He is not a good person." I say with a slight quiver in my voice.

"You mean MY boyfriend?" That surprises me even more. "Are you jealous or what?"

"God no, are you listening? I just want to look out for you." She gives me an angry look. I get the last note out of my phone case and give it to her.

"We wanted to meet at that day." She reads through it and starts to laugh.

I shrink back.

I feel weird

I want to go home

"Good try but I know how Ethan's handwriting looks like."

"What do you mean?" She grabs her phone and shows me a picture of an open folder.