Nothing is scarier than having to watch someone you love get wheeled into the ambulance. I've seen this before and yet it's a nightmare every single time.
It's almost a blur. Almost. Only because I wish it didn't happen and I wish I didn't see Lola being on that cot the moment I get to her house.
Panic and fear rush through my bloodstream that the tears won't stop falling. It all seems like a movie scene that I call my reality.
Atlas spots me and pulls me into his arms as we both cry. The loud noise of our mothers and their siblings yelling can be heard in the distance.
"I should've been there" Atlas cries as I wrap my arms around him tighter.
"Don't hate yourself please" I say through my cries.
I always tell him this that it's become to normal to us.
The screams get louder from inside the house that it could start waking up the neighbors.
"I WAS JUST TELLING HER WHAT HAPPENED BAT BA AKO YUNG DAHILAN AGAD?" Tita Nadia yells out as she starts wiping her tears away.
(Why am I the reason so quickly?)
Atlas and I shouldn't even be here, nor be witnessing this.
"ATE NATASHA ATE NADIA PLEASE" Tita Nika says this time.
"TAIS-TOI" they both yell at Tita Nika.
(Shut up)
We watch as her expression grows sad and defeated from the entrance of the house.
"Ates" Tito Nate speaks up this time.
Mom puts her hands out in a defensive manner from anyone coming towards her "Right now we just have to go to the hospital" she stiffens as she wipes her tears off and grabs her jacket.
"Wendy is coming back here with the kids" Tito Nate mentions.
"Can we come too?" I speak up this time but only to be ignored by them.
I look over at Atlas and our eyes instantly agree to just follow them.
I can see guilt on Atlas' face he drives and I regret letting him drive.
"Atty are we okay right now?" I softly ask.
He nods as we make it to the hospital.
By the time we get to the hospital, I can see our moms, aunt, and uncle in the waiting room. Mom is pacing, Tita Nadia is sitting by herself, and Tita Nika and Tito Nate sitting next to each other talking.
"What do we do now?" I ask as I rest my head on his shoulder and hug his arm tighter...just like when Lolo had one of his chemo therapy sessions and we had to come with.
It feels like that but it doesn't at the same time.
"I don't know Rors I don't know" he mutters.
"Can you tell me what happened?" I ask.
"I just got home when it happened. I could hear mom and Tita Nat yelling and Tita Nika crying as she tried to wake up Lola. Tito Nate didn't come over until 5 minutes later. Told Tita Wendy to take the kids to get ice cream or something so they don't see what happened and that's when I called you. They already called 911 when I got there" he talks.
"I'm scared Atticus" I mutter.
I'm scared
I've said this a lot in my life. I'm scared of failing, losing people, hurting, losing myself, all the endless possibilities that I could have.
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Fanfic"I'd get lost in your ocean eyes my sanity now turned into madness all due to being under the influence of your words nothing left unspoken" What if eye contact led to so much? Her dark brown eyes that she hates so much drowning in his ocean eyes...
