I hesitantly reach for San's hand; the contact of our hands gives me goosebumps and I try to ignore it. He helps me get up and I thank him. I am still feeling a bit dizzy after vomiting, but it's supportable.
The thing is, I still can't get over the fact that Liza and San are still together. My worst enemy dating my best friend. Worst case scenario.
"You can go, I'll deal with myself." I spit at San more harshly than needed.
The truth is I didn't want San to go but I didn't want his pity for him to stay.
"You sure, you don't seem well," San says while taking the temperature on my forehead; giving me chills. "Here some water," he continues using the sink next to us.
I accept the water, maybe he'll go sooner if I obey everything he says. The cold liquid going down my throat makes me feel slightly better with each sip. I give him back the cup after emptying it and he smiles, amused (like I couldn't pour the water myself).
"More," I say.
San fills it again and gives it back to me. He watches me as I drink all of it and put it on the counter.
Why is someone as great as San ends up with a Liza? He deserves so much better.
"So you and Liza." I finally ask the question burning my tongue.
San sighs and turns around so he couldn't meet my eyes.
"I know you don't approve," he answers with sadness in his voice. "You never approved actually."
His words hit me more than I thought they would. Even if I'm facing San's back, I can sense he's hurt, but I am too.
"You really care about my opinion, don't you?" I rhetorically ask to calm the mood down.
San relaxes a bit and lowers his shoulders.
"I do, I mean I did." He corrects himself while turning to face me again. "I just don't get why you hate her so much."
Many reasons make me hate her, but the main one is you, Choi San. We both fall for you, and we both couldn't get over you. But Liza is the one who won your heart, and it broke mine.
"No reason, I just don't like her, period."
San frowns, probably not believing a word I said.
"She said you threatened her, all for keeping me to yourself." He admits, unable to look me in the eyes.
"And you believed her?" I say, more affected than I let it show.
"No, of course not," San assures me while getting closer. "At the time, I was afraid of losing both of you, so I tried to be a good friend for her and for you. But I got so overwhelmed by everything and that's when I lost you."
Lost me. No, I'm the one who lost you, I lost everything that day I changed schools.
Because my everything was you.
A single tear escapes my eye and I don't do anything about it. It hurts so much, I don't have the strength to stop sobbing.
"Hey.." San whispers, breaking the distance between us to hug me. "I'm here now, it's going to be fine."
No, nothing is going to be fine since you're here. My heart was doing much better without you.
"I need to go," I say against San's neck, my nostrils full of his perfume.
Having San close to me like this just makes it harder. I missed him so much.
"I can give you a ride." He says, wanting to help me again, but I shrug my head no.
Even if my brain tells me to stop hugging him, my body still doesn't move. Hearing his heart beating against my chest helped me calm down and stop crying. San is really here. I could stay like this all night to feel his strong body embracing mine.
But I shouldn't.
I step back to end the hug and breath again. We stare into each other eyes for a brief instant and I pass him to exit the bathroom without looking back.
"You can keep the jacket, it goes with your hair." I hear him say before I was gone.
***
I enter the leaving room, looking for Seonghwa.
I have not seen him for a while and I need to ask him if I can stay for the night. I don't feel like taking a taxi to get back to the residence now. Especially after that moment I shared with San in the bathroom, I'm still shaken.
I step back to look at the people in the circle, playing truth or dare. I spot Yunho and Hongjoong talking to each other. Since when they know each other?
This is not going to end well.
"So, Yunho, truth or dare?" Hongjoong asks him.
"Hum... Truth." Yunho answers quickly.
Why are they both in the same room? This is so weird; seeing the two guys I've been sleeping with for the last couple of weeks interacting with each other.
The red-haired guy smirked back at Yunho, happy with his answer somehow.
"How many guys have you slept with?" He finally asks.
I gasp.
Hongjoong is referring to the plan I put on Yunho earlier in my bed. I don't think Yunho recognizes him as the guy I'm having sex with, but I won't take that chance. I need to do something to save him from embarrassment.
"What are you saying dickhead? He was with my cousin last year remember?" I shoot at Hongjoong from the opposite side of the room.
Hongjoong looks at me, amused. But understand the message by looking into my dark eyes.
"Yeah, yeah you're right my bad Yunho," Hongjoong says with a smirk before leaving the room.
And I follow him.
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