TRAITOR - woosan

30. bad idea right? (18+) part 1

Wooyoung

I could not believe my ears. San just suggested that he could bottom for me. How can a man be this kind? Normally one would decide for the other without offering anything in return. But I am glad he did. It means he cares about my comfort, and I could not be more happy about it.

I move one hand against his chest and feel his body tensing under my little touch. "What happened to the confident Choi San huh? Giving me the lead like this," I let go with a smirk as a way to tease him. San rolls his eyes in annoyance but does not move an inch. Our bodies are still touching each other and I wonder how much longer we could resist this growing tension between us.

But then San moves his body closer to me and starts looking into my eyes more seriously. "Maybe I'd like to know what it's like to lose control underneath you," he whispers to my ears and I feel a shiver running down my spine. He really knows how to turn me on.

"If it's what you want," I say in a velvet tone. 

San turns his back on me so he can reach for the lubricant bottle and a condom next to him and put them on the bed. It does not take me more hints to flip him under me without much difficulty. San lets out a scream in surprise but also in excitement. 

I had never thought that this night would have taken a turn like this. I dreamed of this moment for years and when I finally accepted that things would not evolve the way I wanted between us this happens.

I look at San with eagerness and it does not take me much to press my lips against his. His mouth feels incredibly good on mine and I can not keep myself from moaning in the kiss. San on the other hand let his groans escape his mouth every now and then.

We break apart faster than I thought we would both completely out of breath. I stare at the man in front of me and he looks so flushed from my last move. Did I really surprise him or is it something else?  I notice his cheeks getting more and more red as I look down to see his hard dick pressing on my belly. So excited for me already.

"I'll start slowly," I say to him while taking the bottle of lube in one hand. San nods his head following every one of my moves with his curious black eyes.

My thighs against his thighs with only my hands on each side of him are keeping me away from crushing him. I was trying my best not to just let myself fall on San's hot body. But I wanted to do things right for him. I wanted to take my sweet time and enjoy every second with him.

I am about to put some lubricants on my fingers before moving them to his entrance. But before I even open the bottle San stops me.

"I... Wait, I..." The man underneath me starts to say.

San seems embarrassed and shy all of a sudden and I can't help but melt at the view. I thought he was a tough and proud guy but he also has a sensitive side to him that I am loving already. San is just what everyone needs in his life.

"What is it Sanie?" I ask carefully not to mislead him into anything with my big mouth. I just want to make this night memorable for both of us.

"I just want to make sure... Hum... That you... You won't leave me if this does not go as you wanted," San admits without looking at me. I feel my heart aching and my head spinning. I would never leave you, you should already know that. It has always been you.

"Never Sanie, I wanted you and I will always want you," I say to reassure him about my intentions.

"But you had Hongjoong and probably many other guys before," he adds, still avoiding my eyes. "What if I'm not as good as them?" San looks so insecure and it makes me sick at the simple thought of him thinking that I only showed interest in him for sex.

I lifted his chin so he could remember my next words clearly. "This is completely different, I only want you in my life and I'll do anything to make it happen," I assure him, locking my eyes into his so he sees the sincerity in them. 

The air gets stuck in his throat like my confession was a bit too much for him. San does not look at me anymore and I can see he did not expect me to say such a big statement. I am scaring him.

"But it does not have to be tonight," I correct myself so this conversation does not get more embarrassing for me. "I just wanted to say it out loud so you know how I feel about this," I add unsure if he would continue to act uncomfortable now that I expose my feelings to him. 

I want San to be my boyfriend. It never happened to me before but I am sure of how I feel now. 

"Oh..." He finally lets out while I get off him and fall on his left side so he can have some space.

I shake my head, stressed out because of his unresponsive state. Why did I have to talk this much about my feelings? I am just scaring the hell out of him.

But San eventually closes the distance between us and I do not move a centimeter completely head over heels for him. I get goosebumps because of his lips that are now pressing on my collarbone. His mouth on me feels like a gift from the gods.

"I want you too," he finally whispers, moving his mouth and hands on my exposed chest. His sweet words went straight to my heart and I could not help but let myself fall a bit more for him.

San continues to get down on my body till he meets my nipples. He does not wait any longer before his teeth sink into my skin. I try to keep a groan from leaving my mouth but fail miserably. San is heavenly good at this. He takes his time to leave all the marks he wants on me calmly.

The older kept moving on me knowing that I would probably cry my lungs out if he kept going like this. He will never stop.

"So good... San-ah" I let go feeling my heart beating faster in my chest and my stomach warming up. I bite my bottom lip as he starts twisting my already hard nipples between his fingers. 

"So aroused for me," he whispers in a low tone that makes my heart skip a beat.

San looks at me without hesitation before he starts sucking harshly the flesh around my left nipple. He does the same for my right nipple a few minutes later and I throw my head back feeling that I would not be able to hold it together for long. San on the other hand does not look like he is done with me just yet.

"San-ah... You... I... You should stop," I finally say, pushing him away a little, and leaving my hands on his shoulder.

"Too much huh?" He says taken aback by my early rejection.

My expression softens when I see him looking disappointed. I caress his cheek to reassure him. "Maybe a bit if you want me to do you now," I let go with an obvious smile.

San gulps heavenly before his eyes move to my lower body. His eyes widen as they meet the big boner clearly visible under the bed sheets. My cheeks turn a light pink while his mouth stays open in shock.

"Did I do that?" He asks half excited half surprised. I roll my eyes in total discouragement. I could not tell if he was joking or if he was actually impressed by his performance.

"No, no, I was clearly fantasizing about some sexy swimmer that you probably don't know about, and he was doing all this holy stuff to me," I bluffed looking at him with an amused look on my face.

"Some sexy swimmer huh?" San laughs a little before he turns his head to kiss me on the forehead. "You're so cute," he adds, crawling into me. I feel my face heating up from this simple compliment. 

No one ever told me that before. For them, I was all the holiest things but never the soft ones. 

But I think I could get used to it, used to him.

I look at San lying against my shoulder and feel like the mood has changed again. I did not want to be cute for him I wanted him to crave my body in every way possible. He needs to know what I am capable of doing to him.

"I'm not cute, I'm sexy," I let go with a huff as I got away from the bed sheets to top San's body drastically. The man did not know with who he was dealing with.