TRAITOR - woosan

17. his hand

San

"And Hongjoong?" I let go before closing my mouth again surprised this information just slipped out so easily.

Wooyoung frowns at my words. Crap. I should not have mentioned his sexuality like that. It was so inappropriate of me. I just wanted to make things equal since he mentioned my girlfriend.

The truth is, I mostly want to know if Wooyoung and Hongjoong are together. If they are, I just hope this confirmation would help me move on quicker from the bathroom incident this morning. 

"What about him?" Wooyoung asks looking a little angry.

"Nothing I..." I start before closing my eyes, sorry that I mentioned his boyfriend.

I cannot bring myself to stop thinking about everything that happened.

I know I need to stay away from Jung Wooyoung. He is what I should not be attracted to... but I somehow was yesterday and the alcohol was not even to blame.

I did not drink at all.

All these confusions are probably happening because of what is happening in my relationship. Or moreover what is not happening? It's been a while actually since I shared an intimate moment with my girlfriend. We were both really busy the last couple of weeks and I could not bring myself to think about my sex life. Maybe I was finding excuses? No, I really love her, I do. I mean she is everything I want...

But why does it feel so wrong then?

Focus San, you just need to finish this conversation with Wooyoung and everything is going to get back to normal. I'm sure of it.

"I'll text you on Instagram where to meet up next time to get my jacket back," I say before turning around slowly almost waiting for Wooyoung to retain me.

When I start walking away, I immediately feel I made the right choice. I have to stay away from him and concentrate on my relationship with Liza. 

This is what I'm going to do. Starting from now...

"San wait!" Wooyoung says on a run.

I smile at his voice saying my name in rush, wanting me to stay. I don't stop immediately unsure if I should. If I should let myself be vulnerable again.

But when Wooyoung's fingers meet my skin it causes my body to completely freezes under his touch. As far as I am concerned, someone's touch never felt as right as Wooyoung does at this exact moment. His skin feels so soft and warm against mine, it feels so unreal.

I slowly turn around to meet his eyes again. It is just too tempting. I can help but want to see his face once more. His dark pupils meet my brown ones. His wooden scent fills my nostril due to our proximity. Normally I would move from embarrassment, but my whole body does not seem to be ready to go yet. 

I don't want to go away. I want to stay right here.

Seeing Wooyoung this close causes my brain to disfunction, unaware of what to do or think. I'm only a few inches away from Wooyoung's lips. 

Shit. I need to stop thinking about those kinds of things. I was about to leave him behind a minute ago and now... No. 

We are both in a relationship. 

We are incompatible. 

We are just too different. 

Besides Wooyoung is not even into me so I...

"San?" Wooyoung's voice resonates getting me out of my trance.

"Wha... What?" Is the only thing I could come up with to stop all the thoughts getting in my head, realizing Wooyoung's hand is still on my wrist.