The Octagon

Chapter 9-Evie

~Evina

"Evina dear. I'm leaving for work. If you need anything, call me." I heard my mom through the closed door of my bedroom. I always locked it and only ever unlocked it once I had left the room.

It's already 12:10. And I know she will be home soon. My stupid sister. The golden girl. The Greenville High Queen. 

I was talking about the 'beautiful' and 'wonderful' Catya Wild.

She had cheer practice at lunch. Then she would be home. I missed school today so that I could get away from her, but I forgot that I would only have like four hours because sadly I lived with the girl.

I hated being even related to her. I hated even being near her.

When she was around, I was invisible. I was nobody. I was just Cat's quiet little sister. No one even really knew my name because they just didn't care to remember.

I wanted to blame Catya for all this. But it really wasn't her fault. She was just the well-known sister. The memorable one. The beautiful one. The hot one. The one that shined. And I was just the other one, stuck in her shadow.

As much as I knew it wasn't her fault. As much as I hated to envy her, I just couldn't stop myself from wishing she was just a little less popular, a little less pretty, a little less athletic. I just wished she didn't shine quite so much. And that was why I pushed her away.

I loved my sister. I really did. But no matter how hard I tried, my envy of her just got in the way.

We used to be so close when we were younger. When we were both just adorable little girls. But then we started getting older. And Catya bloomed, while I just crumbled and watched. Once we started middle school, Catya began to get a lot more attention. She just attracted people to her. They weren't always nice people either. During high school, it became harder to make friends. People would befriend me just to get closer to my sister. It made me wish that people never knew we were sisters. Even when it was just us two together, I didn't want to be her sister. I pushed her away and she just stood there. She knew why I pushed so she let me. And it just made me feel even worse. It was my fault we weren't close anymore. I knew that. All I could do was hope that I would get over everything and she would forgive me.

I wanted to sleep and to just keep sleeping into another world where people didn't ask me about her, or compare me to her, or use me to get closer to her. I just wanted to be me, not her sister. Not her shadow. Not her anything. I wanted people to know me for me and be alright with just that.

It was already 12:35.

My phone buzzed.

It was Haylin. I liked Haylin. She was so nice. And she never compared me to my sister. But she did remind me of her, which was enough to keep me away from her. I didn't ignore her or anything. I just kept my distance. She was my sister's friend after all. Not mine.

I checked the text message.

"Hey, Evie. Why aren't you at school today you little rascal? I missed ya, girl." I smiled.

"Sorry. I was tired this morning." I texted her back.

"It's cooooool guess what?"

"What?"

"I'm at Chipotle and I'm on my third burrito" I laughed.

"You're a pig"

"Oink Oink" I didn't know how respond to that so I didn't.

She texted again.

"The cashier guy thinks I'm crazy"

"I wonder why"

"I'm ordering a salad this time I'm watching what I'm eating"

"Good for you?"

"Hehehe. I'm also ordering another burrito too"

"Now that is overboard. Is the guy really hot or something?"

"No he's okay. This one's just for later"

"You really are a pig"

"Hey now. Maybe I'll just bring it to you instead. We can haaaaang"

I didn't respond.

She's not my friend. She's my sister's.

I hated pushing Haylin away. But if I didn't, I felt like I would accidentally take out my moodiness on her. I'd probably snap at her even if all she did was trip over a pair of Catya's shoes.

Ugh. Stupid Catya. Everything she touches turns to gold. But gold's just not my color it seems.