Locked once more(Book 2)

Chapter 14

To give it a shot with me? I know I heard him right. I knew Wes had been lying before, but hearing it made it real. He pretended not to be interested in me before because of Derek. I was not caught in a web of confusion. I know what you're thinking. You've only known them for a few months; how can you be sure who you love? I was sure my heart loved Derek, but it cared deeply for Wes. And At that moment, I was just confused. Wes was the good guy who helped me when I first arrived. He helped me with Kasey and was here for me when Derek was a prick. But Derek was misunderstood, and I knew that, and something in me longed for him.

If choosing between the two was really that easy, why did it feel so hard? Derek was my boyfriends, but I wondered if Wesley had been the one to make his move first, would I have been with him? Maybe I was sleeping with him because I loved Derek so much, and it was killing me that he left. Even if he came back, how would I face him, knowing he would let us go behind his back because he thought we both deserved happiness? That wasn't what I expected.

"Then you lied about having feelings for Dani the entire time, and she knew something was off, and when she got pregnant, you decided to try and love her like she should have been, and when she was shot and lost it, you knew part of you knew, you still had a chance, and you were relieved," I said. That was spot on, and he probably didn't expect it. I didn't expect to say it. But here I was, telling him exactly what he already knew.

"No, Addison, I mean, yes, I only chose her because I thought it would make things better, but I never wanted anything to happen to my child. No matter who the mother is, I would never be happy about my child's death, but yes, I did see that as a sign not to give up. Derek knew that too; he might not like Tyler, but he knows me," He said. Wow.

"Hm, well, so do I, and I know that even though Derek was giving you a chance, you should never have done Dani that way, she cared for you, and as for Derek, this letter, this was a goodbye, again, if he comes back, you better kick his ass or I will," I said throwing the letter at him. He breathed in, almost as if he had been crying.

There was a knock at the door. It was probably Dwayne letting me know he was posted outside my door. Surprisingly, he still wanted to look after me with Derek gone. But he was a great friend. And to be honest, I loved him like family. I could talk to him, and he told me things I didn't tell anyone. And right now, all I wanted was to speak to him. To tell him what Wes and I have done twice in one day. I wanted to talk to him about our kiss before. But with Wes in the room, it would be hard to talk to him. So, I did the one thing I didn't want to do. I pushed my feelings down, and I grabbed my robe. Wesley stood up. Knowing I was about to leave the room.

"Addison, where are you going?"

"I need to clear my head for a minute; stay with Faith; I'll be back," I say, about to walk towards the door, but he catches my hand.

"Addison, I get it. This is a lot, but you and I both know freezing to death isn't going to solve anything, and neither is roaming these halls," He said, arguing. Yeah, maybe he was right. But he knew Derek didn't care that we did anything together; he told Wes to do it. And Wes lied to me and kept it from me, making me feel more guilty than anything.

"Maybe, but I can't be in the room with you right now; being around you makes it hard to concentrate, and I need to think for a few minutes," I said. He flares his nostrils like I struck a nerve and then swallows, letting me go. And he nods.

I wrap on the door, waiting moments before Dwayne opens it. When I stepped outside, he noticed Wes in the room with just his boxers on. It wasn't hard to put two and two together. He didn't say anything to me, though. Even if he was thinking it, he closed the door, and Wes stayed in the room. I sigh and tell him I'm going to the kitchen. He leads the way, staying close to me. The halls are momentarily silent before I hear my sisters in the kitchen with Tracy and Dani.