Locked once more(Book 2)

Chapter 15

Shit. It was Wesley. He must have been hiding here the entire time. Or he just didn't hear me come in, and he finally rounded the corner to see me in here. Either way, he was here. My heart stopped when I saw him, nose in a book, Faith beside him. She wasn't supposed to be up, but there she was, Lying at his feet while he was at the side of one of the bookcases. Faith was my best friend, truly. She didn't talk, how many animals did you know that talked? But she was a great listener. And I felt like she understood me.

"What are you doing back in here?"

"I didn't want to be in the kitchen with all the girls, they are having a girl talk kind of night and my head couldn't take it." He nods to me, understanding, maybe he felt bad that I was dragged into it.

"I'm glad you're here, I wanted to say I'm sorry," He said closing his book and walking towards me. Faith lay still, after being shot, Faith took on a new meaning of 'Take it easy.' And it looked like Laziness, but she was still recovering.

"It's okay, honestly I overreacted, it's not like you meant for any of this to happen," I said sighing. He clears his throat softly and takes a breath.

"I didn't, but I do care about you, and I do have feelings for you, strong feelings, and I just want you to be happy and safe," He says. I knew that's what he wanted, Derek wanted that too. To be fair, He probably wouldn't have made a big deal about it, if I hadn't read that stupid letter. And now I was keeping Damien a secret from him. But my guilt was eating me.

"I know, I care about you too, let's put this behind us and try this thing between us, since Derek left, and we don't know if and when he will be back, maybe we should take whatever's between us, and use it," I said. He grins, but I can see the light in his eyes coming back. He takes my hand, intertwining our fingers. I can feel a spark, maybe not the whole firework, but there's a spark.

He closes the distance between us, kissing me, while Faith is sitting in the same spot. His kiss was magical, almost as magical as Derek's. There was something different in the two, but not much. I was in love with Derek, but this was different. And I would have liked to have had Derek doing this but he left, and he gave us the okay to proceed with whatever we were going to do, knowing Wes cared for me. Had this been Tyler, he would have gone off in the head. But Wesley was much better at being there, and he had seen the most raging parts of me before.

He continued kissing me, but not long after, he pulled away. And I can't help but wonder what he's thinking. I didn't want to ask because I could probably guess. Ever since that night we kissed, I couldn't stop thinking the same thing. What if? What if Derek doesn't come back or make it, and Wes and I decide to get together? What if Wes dies saving Derek, and I have to live with that guilt and hurt? What if Wes and I did love each other more than Derek and I? Did I love him? I knew I wasn't in love, but did I love him?

"Addison, I- " He stops himself mid-sentence. I knew what he was going to say. But I didn't hear him say it, honestly, I think I did love him, enough that if Derek didn't come back, I would be okay with him, he was a great man, and he had already seen the best and worst of me.

"We should get to bed," He says, I nod responding. And like that, we left.
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A few days pass, and Dwayne and I have been having secret meetings in the room when Wes leaves to go to Derek's office. Tonight was the night we were going to see if Damien would show up, Both of us wanted to be there, but someone had to stand guard, and that was Dwayne. I had told Wes not to go tonight, I was planning a surprise for him. He bought it, thinking I was planning a Valentine's surprise since Valentine wasn't too far off. Maybe a few weeks. We weren't officially dating yet, but we were seeing each other. No one else knew about it. But that was good. That meant it gave us enough time to figure out if this was what we wanted since Derek was gone.