Locked once more(Book 2)

Chapter 31

Hmm. So he still loved Tracy. But he knew she was happy with Walter, wasn't she? I thought she was. Walter always seemed uncaring. Had she settled for him as a security measure? Maybe Walter didn't love her, but maybe he was just being nice and keeping her with him to protect her. That was sad, if I was true. If she loved Lee at one time, maybe she still had some feelings for him. Or maybe she didn't. One-sided love was a thing.

I sat outside for a while, with my jacket on. Faith was lying beside me. How could Derek claim to love me, and then just break it off with me because he wanted to focus on my safety? Would it not have been better to keep me close? Either way, he didn't make sense. And if I was going to do what Lee said, that meant not worrying about Derek for a while, flirting some, and making Derek think I moved on.

It got too cold for me out here, so I walked back into the house. On my way there I realized the only room I had was in Derek's room. I couldn't room with him now, not after he broke us off and left, that would be awkward. Especially to me. So I did the only thing I could think of. I walk to Dwayne's room and knock on the door. He doesn't answer for a minute, but eventually, he answers the door.

"Addison, are you okay?" He asks me, concerned. I nod.

"Yeah, can I room with you for a few days, Derek broke things off with me and it's just weird now," I said. He nods, opening the door back. I walk in, sighing, and blowing air, Faith follows behind.

"Now listen Faith I don't have a fancy dog house in here, so you have to sleep on the floor, I have to take a watch shift for you Addison, so I'll be right outside," He says, I nod as he stops, shutting the door and turns to me.

"Addison, are you sure you are okay?"

"I- I'm just, no, I don't know what to do with myself, first I love Derek and Wes, but now neither of them want to talk to me, or be near me, it's weird and Lee tells me to play the field, and make Derek so jealous he will have to come back," I said, placing my head into my hands. It's all so confusing right now. And not to mention, Noah won't talk to me.

"Listen, Wes has been so angry since you left, thinking someone took you or worse, and he was worried sick, I know Derek, he loves you, but he blames himself for everything, so he takes the easy way out, I can't say which one will cave first but they'll cave, and Lee may have a great point, a few young guards are coming in tomorrow afternoon, maybe you should hang with them, you know, friends, find who you are without Derek," He says sitting beside me. I nod my head already up, looking at him. He sounds like Lee, telling me to hang with younger guys to make Derek Jealous.

"Listen, I understand you love them both, but maybe dating someone outside of them, would do you good," He said. Maybe they were right. Maybe showing them that they didn't break me, would cause some regret.

After our talk, Dwayne stepped out, and I finally lay down. I was still in my jeans so, I needed something to sleep in. I got up and looked through Dwayne's drawer. I found a few solid black shirts. He wore those under his suits. I grab one. It's a lot bigger than me, but he's husky. I undress and pull the shirt over my head. It comes right above my knees. But it was more comfortable than those pants.

I gather the bed covers and pull them down, crawling under them. And then cover myself up, and let sleep take over. I can sleep better than before because I am home with all of my family around me. I would have run to my dad but I was still upset that he hadn't tried reaching out all those years. And he didn't get it, Dwayne did.

When I woke the next morning, what Dwayne said had sunk in. There were plenty of guys coming, and if I could befriend a couple, maybe we could hit it off. Maybe I would even like one of them enough to flirt a little. Maybe Derek would then see that he can't control his feelings for me. I knew how I felt about him, but if he wanted to be this way, fine.