My dove

We will go slow | NSFW

*Authors note| this is a tough one that hits a little closer to home than I actually thought it would. So please if you want feel free to reach out unfortunately this is something that happens to many people*

Trigger warnings~ past sexual assault oral (r receiving) fingering (r receiving) thigh riding (lesso receiving) sweet loving smut

Prompt~ tumblr Anon~ Hey! idk if ur still taking requests but can I ask for soft Lesso x Reader smut where reader does the deed for the first time since being s**ually abused pleae??? Thanks bestie x

Being with the Dean of the school for Evil was like nothing you expected or had ever experienced before. It was an unexpected love especially after everything you had been through, you swore off relationships of any kind for a long time that's why you found it so surprising how quickly you allowed Lady Lesso into your heart. You were quite surprised with how respectful she was of your boundaries, naturally being a forward and taunting women she had accidentally scared you once by her advance so changed her tactics to being more softer and relaxed in her approach. This seemed to work wonders and you instantly felt safe enough to confide in the dean.

When you told disclosed the horrors you had faced to the women she was in shock to say the least. Admittedly, you weren't together at that point but you were very close and Lesso knew of her feelings towards you but couldn't understand your reactions to her advances. So you sat down in her office and told her everything. Start to finish about what he did to you. You had to pause at certain points as the memories were too strong for you to deal with, but she was patient with you and offered her hand to you as a form of comfort which you took willingly. Some of the parts of your story had Lesso gasping in shock, she had no idea you had been through so much. She could always appreciate a true act of evil but what you had been subjected to was more than evil, it was down right cruel.

That night you cried holding onto her hand as if it was the last life line you had. And yet she remained with you and would for as long as you truly desired it. All she wished to do was gather you in her arms and hold you but she couldn't risk startling you so she waited for you to come to her. And you did. That was the night you and Lesso decided to give this ago.  And for the past 6 months everything has been utterly perfect. It was hard to believe that Lesso wanted you, out of all the people falling at her feet she choose you. Despite the most you had done together is shared a few kisses and cuddles. Lesso reassured you every opportunity she could that she would wait as long as you needed, and if you never even wanted to ever again then she would respect that. After all what you had been through was brutal so it was unsurprising that you may never wish to be touched again.

That was furthest from the truth though. You desired her touch, her hands and truthfully you wished to give all of your body mind and soul to her. But you hadn't been with another since him and it terrified you that you could potentially respond in the wrong way and she'd blame herself. He had called you "damaged goods" he had broken you beyond repair and no one would ever want you now. And you had truly believed his words until her. She changed everything. The way she held you as if you were glass, the way she whispered reassuring words when you were anxious and the way she told you daily you were beautiful and how much she truly adores you. Everything about her changed that mindset. Which is why you decided tonight you would finally give into your desire.

You and Lesso had retired for the night and were laying in bed, you laying on her chest as she read a book out loud, that you truly had no interest in but her voice was soothing and you enjoyed the intimacy of the situation. You were fidgety which was the first clue that you needed to talk, then it was the way you would flick your eyes up to hers before snapping them back down to the pages hoping to not be caught. Lesso marked her book and placed it to the bedside table before shifting to grab your attention.