My dove

Torn apart| Angst

*Authors note~ you ask for angst and angst is what you will receive I'm sorry for those who can't read this.*

Trigger warnings~ miscarriage loss of baby, blood r in battle

Prompt~ tumblr anon~ Can you please write a really intense angst fic with lots of comfort between r and Lesso please??? Going through it rn and your work really helps me
✿✿✿✿✿✿✿✿✿✿✿✿✿✿✿✿✿✿✿✿✿✿✿✿✿✿✿
Really at eight months pregnant Leonora wanted you to be resting as much as you could. Your daughter Isadora Dove would be safer that way. And so would you be. But of course that was never sustainable. No. Rafal decided to storm the castles, starting with the schools for Evil of course. It was no secret he wanted you. To corrupt you. Yet Leonora had scooped you up before he even got the chance. And now you were carrying her child when it should be his. Life is cruel and unfair so of course he planned to correct that himself. If he killed you the Leonora would be destroyed and easily overthrown. The school of evil would be his and his alone. What better than stealing you from her than completely destroying her and now you for choosing Leonora over himself. You had to be punished and of course he was the perfect one to do so.

You heard the terrified screams of students and staff members as he began to attack. But when you heard her voice booming across the hall you couldn't stay hidden anymore, she wasn't allowed to be hurt and possibly leave you and your Isa. When you got there he was tormenting your lover with his blood magic. Since when did he have access to such power old magic. Right now that didn't matter, neither did Leonora's shouts of protest and warnings to go back in hiding. All that matters is your Leo.

It was a valiant effort on your part. You tried everything you possibly could while sheltering your pregnant belly from any of his attacks. Of course you just so happened to be an inch out when it came to dodging a direct powerful hit. And it hit you straight into your swollen belly. Causing you to fall to the floor and hit your head on the hardwood flooring. As soon as your head made contact consciousness left you and you had no idea if you and your daughter or lover would be okay after all this.

The steady beeping of machines, indicating you were alive alongside your absolutely pounding head. The white lights and walls telling you, you had made your way to the hospital somehow. Your hand flew to your stomach before your eyes could even flutter open. The bump still there, but the panic still remained, you wouldn't feel better until you heard her heart beat. "N-Nor- A?" You whimpered, immediately the red head snapped her head up from the bed, "I'm here dove, Nora is here. How are you feeling?" You could tell by her voice that something was wrong. You just knew it. "Head hurts Nora, is Isa okay? They checked her right? You heard her heart beat?"

Before Leonora could answer your question an ultrasound tech came in, "just coming to recheck y/n now" they murmured while setting the machine up, you looked to your lover to see her nervous expression. "What do they mean by recheck Nora?" It is uncharacteristic for the dean to be nervous but it was clear she was. The tech lifted your gown and covered your legs to expose your battered and bruised stomach. "Oh" you gasped in shock, you hadn't protected your stomach well enough, was all you could think. "There's gonna be some cold gel now okay y/n?"

What came from the ultrasound wasn't what you were expecting, the shock of being told they had to induce your labour now due to the injury you'd sustained or Isadora would die. You had no idea how to process that, all you could do is blame yourself for not protecting her. It's not time yet. You still had another month for this and now all thanks to a man's jealousy you and your daughter would be in for a rough ride, Leonora left feeling useless and unable to help.

Leonora was in a similar state by blaming herself but trying to remain strong for you as you both took in the news, her anger flaring for Rafal, she'd make him suffer for this. Your beautiful daughter and he'd hurt her. At some point the technician left you and your lover to discuss what you wished to happen now. It took some hours of you both holding one another for you to calm enough. You'd never be okay with this decision but it was one you unfortunately had to make now.

That day you were given the tablet to induce your labour. Within forty eight hours you were having contractions as you sobbed about how unfair this all is. You should've had more time left. Why you and why would this happen to someone as innocent as your unborn child. Leonora trying to comfort you the best she can but inside her heart breaking for you and your daughter. Oddly enough when your daughter entered the world, there were no screams from you or her, the world seemed to be peaceful and calm. It was as if your daughter was just sleeping. The panic rose through your whole being despite the still spasms of your contractions.

"Nora! Why's she not crying?! They said she'd be okay!" You cried as your redhead love seemed to be frozen stiff. She heard your words but couldn't find the answer for them. It was a blur how the baby was scooped away and surrounded by a swarm of medical professionals, one nurse and doctors remained with you, trying to calm you enough to deliver your placenta.

Due to the birth you had your placenta had gotten stuck which meant you were whisked away by now your own swarm of nurses to theatre leaving Leonora alone and panicking about losing not only her new born daughter who's not cried yet and you. All she could do is sit and wait in the unknown.

Word count~ 1043