My dove

Only you know the truth| h&c

*Authors note ~ I hope this is okay for you darling and anyone else who is struggling*

Trigger warnings~ stressed out reader

Prompt~ moon3thal on tumblr~ Hi Mars! I'm not doing so well again unfortunately, it's because of school again,
¡ have mid-terms in a month or so and it's really fucked me up, I constantly feel guilty whenever I'm not studying and I also started feeling like a fraud since so many people think I'm so intelligent but I actually just study a lot and I feel like I'm cheating all of them, can I request a leonora lesso x reader fic w comfort for this maybe w a verse from the song 'blow my brains out - (sometimes the truth is just your point of view, not what is real and not what is true) that verse has really helped me because I tend to assume I'm a failure to everybody and no one could ever be proud of me but in reality that may not be true, just a part of my fears
Thank you so much if you do decide to write this, and if you don't, that's okay too!
Have a wonderful day either way and here's a bouquet of flowers for you a <3
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Exam season was always though. You were a perfectionist at heart, and often stressed yourself out unnecessarily. This exam season was important you knew that, and being a never, Lady Lesso had made it clear that anyone who fails would have one on one meetings with her to figure out why they had. Truly, you knew that the two deans were incredibly anxious, both trying to beat one another in the end of year tests.

For days you would lock yourself in your dorm room, head buried in mountains of revision. Other Nevers didn't seem to bothered by it but you? It was all you could think about. Your attention and energy all focused around these tests. Sometimes you wished you could let someone stand in your shoes, and see how they would handle this at stress. If only you could.

A few days before the tests were due to begin, Lady Lesso asked you to stay behind d and you immediately panicked. You always try to be perfect and with the stress of the tests had you failed? You remained sat at your desk while she strutted around the room. "Sweetheart, you've been acting differently recently, what's going on?"

"Nothing, im fine. I just have a lot of revision to do" you mumbled avoiding her gaze. You couldn't admit that you just wished to make her proud of you, that was so un never like. "It's the tests isn't it?" She retorted and you wondered how she knew that instantly. Had you really been that obvious?

"I just want to do well, I don't want to let you down Lesso. I want to help us win" you explained still avoiding her gaze, picking at your finger nails in an anxious tick. "Sweetheart" she murmured moving to stand in front of your desk, "you're one of my best students. I have no doubt you will do well. I'm truly proud to have you on the evil side." Her words causing your brain to lag slightly. Proud? Of you?

The confusion was evident on your face which caused her to explain further. "Sweetheart, you put too much pressure on yourself, you have the knowledge it's all there. And as much as I adore your need to please me, I can think of many other ways you can do so. Like eating and sleeping and achieving a good balance between life and school." You nodded along feeling a stray tear roll down your cheek. "Lesso, I just I don't want to disappoint" you whimpered stifling a yawn. Truly, you were tired and you didn't realise how much so. It was exhausting to be this much of an a perfectionist. Trying to earn the praise of everyone and please everyone. It truly was hard. Yet here listening to Lesso's words, you finally felt like you were enough. You didn't have to fight so hard because you were already impressing Leonora. All you had to do was make sure to look after yourself so you could continue being her best student.

Word count~ 718