My dove

You kept coming back | h&c

*Authors note~ i love the idea of this as someone who it's hard to get close to I hope I can give this some justice*

Trigger warning~ trust issues, pushing everyone away. Hinted sexual assault

Prompt~ tumblr anon~ can i request lesso x reader with lots of fluff where the reader aren't feel enough I mean whenever a person show any emotional affect towards her she immediately push away everyone and lesso didn't give up she's fighting for the reader and proves it that she is there for her anytime btw you're amazing sending you lots of hugs
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People were notorious for letting you down, it's all you ever knew. How could you expect anything else from anyone? So you built walls, put up defences and shut yourself off. You would protect yourself at all costs and that was something you swore to yourself you would do. Part of that was to avoid all human interactions that included any emotional connection. People often view you as cold and distant so there wasn't exactly many people trying to emotionally connect with you.

With how resistant you were to form any bonds it was no surprise that you were indeed quite isolated. It was safe and comfortable and you often found yourself seeking solace in books, fantasy and factual books were your favourite. You found company in the stories and facts in the books, due to this you were quite knowledgeable in many subjects but you just didn't have the social connections to share it with anyone.

The one person who was trying to break down your walls and defences was the Dean of Evil. You caught her interest when you started at the school. Your preference for solitude and sitting in the corners of the room back to the rest of the population. It was intriguing to her, she was desperate to find out why you were exhibiting such strange behaviours. That was rare even for a Never. She made sure to observe from afar at the start. When it became clear that this was not a phase for you she began to become concerned. It was not common that even a Never wouldn't form of connection with at least one person.

Her first attempt at approaching you was met with a simple act of ignorance, you acted as though she wasn't there, you just shoved your head in your book and carried on. Lesso knew then you wouldn't give in so easily. Every day she made attempts to get you to open up, each attempt was unsuccessful. It was bothering you, you could feel your resolve awaking and that was absolutely terrifying. You had to keep her out and yourself safe. Your heart truly couldn't take anymore damage.

For the next few days you fought harder, any progress Leonora thought she had made was swiftly destroyed. Whoever had hurt you had done one hell of a job. The eviler sides of her admired the pain caused but the softer side felt the urge to shelter you from all things bad in the world. Her two views constantly battling against one another that she missed what happened to you.

Some of the Never boys had placed a bet, a bet they could sleep with you, you apparently had become the schools most popular target. Unfortunately the Never boys had one rule, the first to get you gets to do as they will. You were not aware of this until you were cornered on the way back to your dorm. You didn't know who it was, one of the downsides of you never forming an attachment to anyone, all you knew was you wanted to go. His hands firmly keeping you against the wall as he murmured just what he was going to do to you and how wining this bet would make him so well respected. His hands trailed over your clothed body and you truly felt sick to the stomach. The panic you felt causing you to freeze, you felt powerless, helpless and weak.

Truthfully you don't know how you got away from the situation, it was all hazy. All you remember was his cry of pain and your legs moving as fast as they can in an unknown direction. You didn't stop running, slamming doors as you made your way round the school until you some how found yourself in Leonora's office. Her cry of surprise at the sudden intrusion seemed to shock you back to reality, "darling? What on earth happened?"

One simple question caused you to fully break down, collapsing in a heap on the ground sobbing uncontrollably. Truthfully, you were tired. Tired of hiding. Tired of being alone. Tired of protecting yourself from affection as if you didn't crave it. Maybe that's why you threw yourself into her arms as soon as she was close enough to do so. Credit where it's due, she didn't even falter, hands instantly wrapping around you in a secure hug. Your body shook with the force of the sobs, she whispered and rocked you like a small child. Although she had no idea what would cause this, she could tell this was what you needed. How long had it been? She didn't know but here and now she knew that for as long as you desired it she would be your safe person. And for you, you finally let her in past all your protection, you answered her unasked question through whimpers, "I'm sorry, it's just. You kept coming back and" you took a deep breath, "I really needed this."

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