I'm sorry if I say, "I need you"
But I don't care, I'm not scared of love
'Cause when I'm not with you, I'm weaker
Is that so wrong? Is it so wrong?
~~~~~
Louis rolled the bottle of pills on his lap then sighed
He stopped rolling it, stood up, walked towards his bedside table, drank some water and took the pill
He rubbed his face and hid the bottle deep into his drawer then laid down
Harry was in the shower, and the sound of the water soothed Louis into a dreamless sleep
Where nothing is wrong, and it never will be
~~~~~
Harry looked at Derek then shook his head then started to pace making Derek frown
It's all Harry's been doing for the past 30 minutes, it seems like he has a lot to say but doesn't know how to say them
"Do you want me to-"
"Can you get Louis to talk to you?"
Derek was taken aback and his eyebrows shot up "What?"
Harry cleared his throat "Can you. Get Louis. To talk to you?"
Derek frowned "Not that I mind, but why?"
"He's been.... Acting weird for a week now"
Derek rubbed his jaw "What do you mean?"
Harry's shoulders fell "He's more drowsy, he looks more into nothing and Angus has cut down his gym days to 3 times a week, he does more knife throwing now"
Derek slowly nodded absentmindedly, looked at Stiles who was laughing with Louis
He then turned to Harry again "I'll talk to him.... But I can't promise I'll tell you anything- or even that HE will tell ME anything"
Harry frantically nodded "Yes, yes I know." Harry looked away "It's just that Isaac's been away for 2 weeks and Liam is-" Harry shrugged "I don't know.... I haven't seen or heard from him in days"
Derek nodded "I'll see what I can do"
~~~~~
Louis was laying on the couch with his head on Harry's lap, he seemed focused on the movie before he sighed and sat up
"Lou-"
"My liver is failing."
And just like that, Harry felt his whole world collapse
~~~~~
Harry was pacing. Again.
Louis stayed seated with his knees drawn up to his chest and frowned looking at Harry
"How about a second opinion?" Harry said still pacing
Louis sighed "Doctor Stephan is a good doctor H"
Harry suddenly froze and turned to Louis "Doctor.... Stephan? What happened to doctor David?"
Louis shook his head "He was out of office, he himself was sick"
Harry frowned "And you trust doctor Stephan?"
Louis shrugged "I doubt doctor David would trust anyone with people Zayn asked him to check on. He'd be too terrified"
Harry sighed but slowly nodded, he sat beside Louis and held his hand
"What can I do? How can I help?"
Louis smiled and kissed Harry's cheek "I'll need you to understand that I won't be as strong as you'd like me to be...."
Harry shook his head and cupped Louis' cheeks "You're my Lou. You'll always be strong"
~~~~~
Louis looked at the piano before he sat down, he hasn't been playing for himself recently, he's been doing it only to teach his students or to remember his grandfather
But today.... Today felt different
Today he just took his medication and Harry wasn't home.
He was bored out of his life then he remembered the thing that was once everything to him
It started off with random keys, then putting keys together to make a perfect rhythm
Then singing the lyrics privately
Then singing the lyrics as loud as his voice would let him go while playing the keys
He sang and played the piano until his throat and fingers hurt
He remembered the feeling of being cheered on by the school and during his show
He remembered the light that shined on him and just him, how in the beginning it felt so.... Wrong
How it felt like it shouldn't be him, but later on he lived with it, the heat of the light, the eyes on him
He learned to enjoy it
But as his fingers slowed down, he remembered his last show.
He remembered the pain of his family (and Harry) not being there
He remembers hauling Liam out of their shared apartment and getting him into the car with the blood staining his hands
He remembers how his brother got so money hungry to the point of attempt murder
He completely stopped, and looked at the keys as his hands ce to his side
He wondered.... 'what's stopping me from showing whoever cares what I'm made of?'
He kept on looking at the keys before he pulled the fallboard on and covered them
'I'm stopping myself.'
~~~~~
When Harry walked into the house, he walked towards living room and saw Louis playing outside with Clifford through the window
Harry then looked towards the piano and raised his eyebrows before he opened the backyard door and Louis turned towards him
"You alright?"
Louis nodded with a small smile "Just got a burst of energy. Thought I could make someone happy"
Harry chuckled and nodded "You're always useful love"
Clifford barked before he jumped off of Louis' lap and ran towards Harry
Harry knelt down and picked Clifford up then stood up
He started to quietly talk to him as Louis laid down and looked up at the sky
A while later, Harry walked towards him and laid down beside Louis on the grass
They turned to each other and both smiled, Louis leaned in with his hand on Harry's face and kissed him
Harry smiled as he kissed Louis back
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Fanfiction"You and I have been playing a different game. You thought this was a game of Russian roulette, when in reality it's chess, and I just won"
