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He looks up grinning like a devil
It's new, the shape of your body
It's blue, the feeling I've got
And it's ooh, whoa, oh
It's a cruel summer
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Connor is the oldest; in many ways
The oldest son, grandson, brother, nephew, and male cousin
In the yearly family photos Trisha asks for, Connor is always the person the camera operator focuses on
Let the oldest come ahead, bring him over, come on now!!
The oldest should be seen more
Let the girl stay in the back, so when people come they'll see the oldest
The thing is…. He might not even be the official oldest
His sister might be, and part of him believes she deserves it more than he does
She was actually raised by Trisha and Yaser, she's been in this family longer than anyone
She's a lot stronger than he is, it takes Connor a month to feel comfortable enough to sleep somewhere, while as soon as Estrella checks the place. She'll be fine
He couldn't even sleep in his university dorms because he didn't feel comfortable so he now takes an extra long drive every morning
Connor is just a default for a situation that nobody knows, and he doesn't know how to feel about it
In the end of summer family photos, the photographer always refers to him as 'the oldest'
He hates that guy, but he stays quiet because he sees how happy Trisha is when it's time for the photos
Mostly since he failed in the one thing he always wanted to do, and the one thing he always wished to do
And it's to keep his siblings safe
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Connor sat up on Lukas' bed and rubbed his eyes
"Not staying?"
Connor got off and shook his head "No" He mumbled and slipped his flannel on top of his tank "You knew what this is, and let it stay that way"
Lukas sighed and sat up "I know, Connor, but that doesn't mean I'll let you walk out in the middle of the night"
"It's not the middle of the night, it's 10pm, I can still make it home"
Lukas frowned "You were ambushed at your uni after your last final"
"And I still took care of myself" Connor said slipping his shoes on
Lukas frowned "Sure?"
Connor nodded "Yes"
"Want me to take you to your car?"
Connor looked at Lukas "Do you do that for everyone you hookup with?"
Lukas smiled "Only the cute ones"
Connor shook his head "No. I can make it out on my own"
Lukas nodded "Take care, ok?"
Connor waved him off as he walked out, he slipped his hands into his pockets and gripped his keys
He walked down the stairs and out to his car, he heard whispers and met someone's eyes
He heard them gasp and quickly jog towards him
"Hi"
He gave them a forced smiled "Hi"
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