Excessive (Harry Styles Fanfiction)

Chapter 64.

"When will I be able to go back to normal?" I asked Luchesi as he tried his hardest to finish the pancakes he was making for me. He grunted and turned around with his lip taken between his teeth.

"Physically or mentally?" he asked, making me grown and cover my head with my arms.

I had been away from him for almost 12 hours and I can't even think properly. I missed the way he was before we left for Italy. When he was cheeky and funny and laughed. The cold looks he gave me earlier today shocked me and terrified me. He never looked at anything that sinister and evil, it was as if I wasn't even human to him, like I was just another passing soul.

Luchesi had tried his hardest to stay off the topic of him, but we both knew that it was still fresh in the air. I left my kidnapper in the dust and I sit here now with his older brother who once abused him. It was too much for anybody to forget but I do give credit to Luchesi for at least trying. He isn't as bad as Harry made him out to be, maybe he did change for Harry.

From what I thought about Luchesi was that he was just an evil person, but after spending this time with him and getting to know him, he is just as broken as Harry, if not worse. He wants a relationship with his brother after so many years of having to avoid him and degrade him. He wants a family and he wants love just like any other human is bound to want.

I watched as he maneuvered around his large kitchen. He was muscular just like his brother as well as tall, not as tall as Harry, but still up there. He had a bit more upper arm muscles than Harry did, but just by a bit. He was flexed and tense similar to Harry when he is uncomfortable with the situation or he's trying to hide something. I wonder if Luchesi is doing the same thing.

"What's wrong, Luchesi?" I asked making his head snap in my direction and look at me.

"N-Nothing, nothing's wrong" he said shaking his head quickly, too quickly.

"You are a Styles, I can tell your mannerisms better than anybody in world" I said making him sigh and take the pancakes off the pan. "What's wrong?" I asked once more once he placed the pancakes on the plates.

"It's just..." he began as he set the plate in front of me. "...all my life Harry always went above and beyond to make the people he hated miserable. I am definitely one of the people he hates. He was fully capable of killing me on that balcony, I know those were his intentions" he said making me tilt my head in confusion.

"What are you asking me?" I asked making him rest his hands on the kitchen table and lean back.

"Why did he stop when you told him to?" he asked making me raise an eyebrow. "I know if one of the others boys came out and told him to stop it would only encourage him more, but how were you able to stop him?"

"What are you implying?" I asked making him shrug his shoulders.

"I'm saying, maybe I am right, maybe Harry feels something towards you" he said making me shake my head. "Maybe he does feel love"

"No if he really 'loved' me, he would have came after me the moment I left his office" I said making Luchesi shrug to himself.

"Just throwing it out there" he said, running his fingers through his hair.

"He's incapable of love" I said making him chuckle and shake his head.

There was no way Harry can ever love. He is too broken and too cold to even mutter the word never mind feel it. He flinches every time Sophia and Liam kiss, I could only imagine what he would be like as a boyfriend. There is no way a man who has never been looked at in that way could be capable of such a thing. If he could only see the beauty of love, his life could be completely different.