BEFOREMATH (SJSM fanfic)

Come To Me

Specimen 4:

I hear someone, it sounds like a weeping child.. yes.. I can sense them, they're clearly in danger.

Oh.. they seem so afraid, I need to go aid them, I can't leave a child all alone like this, that wouldn't be right, it's like what 1313 would say, he always wanted to ensure security, safety and care, and that's what I want to do as well, I'm sure she'd come and save them too, oh if only I could've saved her as well.. all of us wouldn't be feeling so terrible, but at least the one who hurt her got what was coming to nyan

I followed the aura of the child's sadness, it's quite strong.. they feel afraid, regretful and are in pain..

I saddened as I continued approaching,  I could hear them muttering and panting, a flashlight shaking in their grasp as they walked along the halls. It's a teenager, whatever is someone so young doing in here ? But alas, it wouldn't be a good idea to send them out, it's not like I even can, but I have a better idea in mind.

I approached the child, they saw me and yelped, I'm aware I look really scary, but I won't let my looks stop me from my goal, they have to learn to stop fearing me, as much as it pains me to see them be so afraid of me. 

" Child, come here.. " I spoke softly and opened my arms, but they instead started to run from me, the color draining out of their face, I frowned, it's not the first time something like this happened, they all either scream, cry, freeze up, and/or try to escape from me, unfortunately they usually do get away despite my efforts, but I can't leave vulnerable ones abandoned

I chased after them, they're rather fast for someone who seemed to be out of breath, I can't let another one escape.

The kid picked up a stray chair and threw it at me, I simply phased through it and continued, unfortunately, I think they're getting near the exit of my room.. prrhaps.. I should directly go to the exit instead.. it's a bit risky to leave them alone, but I've gor to at least try.

I left them, I heard them cry a little as I did so, I feel bad for scaring them, I really do, but I have to do what's best for them, I wouldn't be able to bear the guilt otherwise.., all I hope is that the child stays safe, maybe I should gets some snacks from the vending machines and prepare some manga so I can read to them, children love snacks and being told stories ! I'm sure it'll make them feel safer and right at home !!

My only problem now is if they find the secret exit, then I'll never be able to get to them unless I'm fast enough, which I'm not

Hoo boy.. no wanderer and little to no GLAs have found that secret passageway, only reason those people don't know is because I made it, it took a lot of power out of me though.. the reason I made it is because I wanted a safe place to hide from those horrible lab coat wearers.

I reached the main exit and loitered around the room, just awaiting for them, I can just barely sense them, they're coming closer, I must be patient, patience is key, after all. It might take them a bit, this place has very little light, it's not easy to navigate, I would go to guide them, but that'll completely ruin what I'm trying to do, and if they run away, they might get more lost.. and it'll all be my fault for frightening them.

I have to try and learn to look more friendly and approachable, but it's hard to do so in my situation, I could try smiling but that probably won't change a lot, some people tend to think smiles make things look creepier

I can hear them again, they're coming closer, I looked around, waiting to see where they'll come from, or- no, maybe it's best I wait right at the exit door rather than just around the room where they may easily be able to run past me.

I heard a door creak open, the teen stumbled inside, sniffling, I can hear the slow pitter patter of their footsteps come closer and closer, I can sense their feelings.. I seem to have made it exponentially worse.. something in me is telling me to let them go, allow them to continue onward through the mansion, but there's no real safe spaces here, the specimen 1 are horrible, what if they decide to have some fun with them ? What if Specimens 5 and 6 become violent upon their arrival ? What if a lab assistant perceives them a threat and takes them away, and off to become a mindless zombie with the rest of them, or used for experiments, or exterminated on the spot ?

I must do what's necessary, I can't let anyone and anything put them in harm's way

They turned the corner slowly, we locked eyes, their eyes were blood shot and teary, I could see the bags under their eyes, they look so sickly and terrible. They yelped and backed up, shaking, I stared at them, I smiled and held out my arms, trying to appear more friendly and less threatening, the child stared at me for a few seconds before balling their fists and straightening themself, they stared daggers at me and seemed to be thinking, trying to collect their words.

" Wh- what are you going to do, ah ?! "

I was taken aback by the sudden agression seeing how they were so defenseless and upset mere seconds ago, but I won't give up, just because they don't understand doesn't mean it'll be ok for me to stop caring.

' I only want to help.. I'll keep you safe " " where ?! How ?! Why ?! " " In my womb " I patted me stomach, it's true, frail ones must be protected at all costs, even in the strangest of places, I would know, my baby was safe in there for so long until.. it left my body.. 

The child flinched and started to back up again. " You won't have to worry, you won't be able to die in there, the outside world is too dangerous, you're a child, you can't just be left out here ! " I felt myself growing emotional, despite my plan from earlier, I started to approach them, they started breathing heavier and faster, they gritted their teeth and punched a locker next to them, the loud noise made me flinch and freeze in my tracks

" HOW THE HELL AM I SUPPOSED TO BE SAFE IN YOUR WOMB !! NO SOY UN BEBE !! THERE'S A GOOD DIFFERENCE BETWEEN ME AND A FETUS !! YOU BRAINDEAD, MINDLESS, LUNATIC !! " They screamed, seemingly about as loud as they can, they shook from their agression, their face getting redder, and their eyes staring daggers into my very being.

I felt something in me sort of.. break..

Oh..

They took the opportunity of me floating in place, frozen from shock, to run out and exit

I.. oh I've done it again

No no..

It was another one of those episodes

After over 700 years, you'd think I'd be over it by now, you'd think I wouldn't be striken with so much grief still, it's gotten better but it's still there.. and I keep making it everyone's problem. And you'd think I'd learn after the countless times I've consumed people that I'd learn, I'd learn that they'll die anyway, my womb isn't big enough, and they wouldn't live in there even if it was..

Oh.. why can't I learn to be more considerate ? To think more ?? Why can't I break out of this.. why am I like this.. 

I feel terrible for that child, I must've traumatized them, I scared them so bad and instead of aknowleding that I was the problem and moving on I just kept going after them, they didn't deserve this.. there isn't anything much better onward.. but knowing this place, no one can leave at all.. death really might be the only escape this poor little one has..

I just hope whatever or whoever takes their life has mercy on them