BEFOREMATH (SJSM fanfic)

he's back

Spooky:

I rushed in as soon as I got the news; Taker woke back up !! And he's apparently feeling much better now !!

I went into the room he was being held and carefully approached his bed. He and I made eye contact.
I braced for it, for him to get mad, cold, short, give me the silent treatment, just any negative reaction, I should've seen this coming, I should've known something bad would've happened to him, why couldn't I just listen and do better-

" Are you okay, Spooky ? " He said in a gentle and tired voice
I softened a little and stared at him with a mixture of confusion and concern, " y.. yeah.. ? Are you ?? "
" I'll be fine- eugh.. " he rubbed his head and leaned into his pillow, I saddened and held my hands behind myself, twiddling with my fingers

" .. you're not.. mad ? "
" ... I'm a little dissapointed, yes, but not angry  "
" Why ??? "
" ... Spooky, look at me " he gave me a more serious look as he sat up, " you're barely 12 years old, yes, I gave you instructions to make sure things don't get too chaotic, but I should've been more specific, plus, again, you're a kid, you shouldn't be expected to do everything perfectly.. and I know you didn't do this out of malice against me.. "

I stayed quiet, just listening and wallowing in my guilt as he spoke
" Yes, I'm not happy at all with what you've done, but you're a kid, you don't understand nor problem solve well.. but I also know you're aware enough to understand this; stop it with all the horrific experiments, or at least take it down a notch " " r- right.. I'm really sorry.. "

Taker just nodded. I held back my tears and got a little closer, patting his head, he chuckled and patted me back. " I'm glad you still have good in your heart, kid " " mhm.. ! I guess so.. ehe.. "
" ... I uh.. kinda.. expected you to be a little.. harsher "
" Huh ? "
" Nothing- just- I'm glad you're not too angry.. "
" Mhm "

I don't get it.. I'm happy he didn't yell at me, but that's the point, why ?? Why didn't he get angry ?? I'm a big part of the reason he had the be basically hospitalized..

He told me something important, and I didn't take it seriously enough, I messed everything up for him, I messed him up..

.. whatever.. I'll just deal with this for now, I've learned my lesson, and all is mostly well..
Hopefully the GLAs will listen to me when I tell them to start being more mellow towards humans and maybe even the specimen..

.. I still don't trust the other specimen though, I know what the GLAs told me, they're not trust worthy.. but if being nicer to them means that Taker will be better then alright