BEFOREMATH (SJSM fanfic)

Meow Meow

Kat:

" Heyyy !! " " Vete a la mierda.. " " oooh someone's in a bad mood ! "
I giggled and circled Hugo who was staring out of an artificial window, he's pretty pissed off right now, what a great time to start teasing him !!

" Que quieres...?! " He said in a raspy, stern tone
" Oh nothing, what's wrong with talking to a friend ? "
" NO ERES MI- " " better to be friends than to keep fighting, hm ? "
Hugo huffed and held his head as if it was in pain, I giggled again and jumped up on the windowsill, looking right at him

" You're very silly when you're angry "
" Calla te ya !!! "
" What makes you think I'll listen to some kid's orders, hm ? "

He didn't respond this time, I lifted my paw to poke him but he slapped it, I flinched and playfully fell over, " oh dear ! I've been attacked !! " I lifted my paw upwards to make a sort of dramatic fainting pose, but still, no reaction from the kid, I guess he's toughened up from my teasing

Whatever, that doesn't mean I won't stop trying

I got back up on my paws and walked back over to him, " what are you so upset about this time ? " No response, again. I sighed and tried again, " what are you so upset about this time ? " I asked a little louder. Nothing. Hmm.. yes, he's getting good at ignoring me, but that's no surprise, we've known each other for a very long time now, in fact, I'm actually quite proud of him for being able to shut me out, but that doesn't mean that I'll give in and leave him alone, this is far too fun to drop so easily, I'm sure there's other ways to break him or get a reaction out of him

" .... Thinking about those friends who left you here like an old toy ? "
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" ... I'm sure they don't feel even a little bad leaving the likes of you here.. Forever alone, hoohoo !! "
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" I'm the only company aside from occasional Generic Lab visits you're allowed to have, you can't even properly communicate with the souls you've stolen "
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" ahhhh, I'm sure those souls would've been great friends with you if you hadn't killed them.. Yes, perhaps that's why they left you here, because you're so violent, impulsive, and risky, you're lucky I'm even still talking to you "
I can see him gripping and clenching his hands, I can't tell if he's finally emotionally reacting to me or if he's trying to cut my voice out, either way, I'm liking what I'm seeing. He's only 17, he's bound to break somehow, minor minds are fragile, that's why they're called minors; they have a minor amount of strength, it's easy to manipulate them and mold their brains.. But I guess this one's toughened up quite a bit despite his age being frozen.

Oh well, who's to say that he can't still adapt and overcome ?
But there will always be something he can't handle, and I'll make it my job to keep messing with him, his pain gives me strength and joy, I need some sort of entertainment here, and he needs my company or else he'll completely lose it

" You know bottling up your emotions is unwise, it'll only cause you more pain "
" hmph.. "
" I'm only trying to help you let it all out, you seem unhappy, and you were doing so well trying to release your inner demons when you started yelling at me earlier "
" ... You really want to help, hm ? " he asked, not in a happy, relieved tone, but in a more angry and suspicious one, I giggled and tried to nuzzle up against him but he shoved he away, causing my little cat body to tip over

Huh.. from down here, he really is quite intimidating, but whatever, fear is a natural part of most beings and I won't let that get to me, besides, like I said, he needs me, and this kid is smart, he knows severe consequences will come if he severely injures me.. And unfortunately, the vise versa is true as well, but they never said anything about psychological warfare

" Leave me alone. "
" What makes you think I'll- "
" LEAVE. ME. ALONE. ", he wasn't yelling, just raising his voice and getting progressively angrier, if he had strong teeth, he'd probably be gritting them. He stood up and swung the door open, he pointed out the room and whipped his head back at me, I stood back up on all 4s and tilted my head smugly. " OUT. " " No "
" Porque ?! "
" this is my room too, you know ? You can't simply kick me out, kid ! "
" You said you wanted to help, you'll help if you leave me alone ! "
" aww but I just want to understand you- " " NO "

We're at a stalemate, I refuse to move and he refused to be within a kilometer of me, but I like that, I'll take any opportunity to spread misery, even if I only have one person around me.
Well.. technically he's multiple people, but he's the only one with a real conciousness, consider him something similar to a dissociative system's host who's been front stuck for years rarely ever leaves front.
Whether he is a system or not is up for interpretation, part of his purpose is being the embodiment of trauma and all things bad as thought of by whoever he tortures, but even still, he can't best me, and he never will be, therapy overcomes trauma in most cases

" If you think I'm leaving I'm a bigger fool to you than what I actually am "
" well then, yes ! You ARE a fool at thr bare minimum ! " he replied, still sounding angry. Tch.. kid thinks being smart with me will do anything
" if I'm a fool, what does that make you ? "
He raised an eyebrow, confusion blending in with his anger. I giggled and walked over to him, circling him, he seemed to find that quite annoying, heehee !

" I'm meant to represent therapy, and you're meant to be trauma '
" so ?! "
" Therapy overcomes trauma more often than not, right ? "
" ... yes ? "
" so lf I'm stromger, if I'm better, if I can beat you, calling me a fool says a lot about you "
He was silent for a bit, raising a finger to say something but then he just slumped and grumbled with rage.
" face it, you can't bend me to your will, besides, you should respect your elders ! "
" fucking make me. " he challenged me through gritted "teeth", having his arms crossed and his gaze averting my face.
" hm ? You know that if we cause a ruckus, we'll borh get into trouble, or maybe it'll be just you ? " is it really worth it to risk your final chance of having a normal conciousness and semi independence of who you are just because you can't cope with me ? "

" ... " he sighed, his sigh sounding rough like gravel, I just giggled at him and turned around
" I'll leave you to it, to think about what I said, you can either show or tell what you think would be better for you " and I began to walk away. I heard him slam the door as I did

Some people might consider bullying a traumatized child as cruel, I do as well, but I like that, I'm aware of what I'm doing and I don't care, I'll have my fun for as long as I possibly can, and if I get tired of him, I might try pushing my luck with the scientists, what's the point of living if you can't be at the top ? Or when you're bored of it ?
It'll take an act from a god to stop me, even if I die again I'll still be a bitter, resentful, hateful spirit, maybe I'll haunt someplace else or use my ghostly abilities to my advantage and explore this place, haunt the workers, haunt the specimen.. who knows ?

That's part of why I even signed up to this, the authority of someone like a GL scientist or assistant is far greater than most others, they can do almost anything, they have so much power at their disposal, but alas, I pushed my luck too far.. but I don't regret it that much, sure it sucks that I lost such a lovely position, but look at me now, I'm suppose to represent good, therapy, everything I wouldn't want to be, but I can use that to my advantage

The normal eye wouldn't percieve an innocent, soft spoken cat as evil right ?