BEFOREMATH (SJSM fanfic)

dnaL

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Ow ow ow OW OW AUGH
Oh.. oh fuck ow that hurt so fucking bad, I'm not surprised but good grief, I'm in agonizing pain.
I don't know what I just landed into, I know I was headed towards that blue planet but I got scared and shut my eyes before landing. I know I'm somewhere dark and cold, and I'm in too much agony and just too tired to try and move my body to look around.

I don't even know why I thought this was a good idea at all, I know I didn't care if I died or not.. but why did I try anyway ? Maybw it was just false hope of finding a new home.. and now I've found myself here.
If this is how I die then so be it, I shouldn't have even tried, I should've just let myself die out there in the vacuum of space, or let myself be crushed by an oncoming rock, or just been torn up, who knows, I just want to die now.. this was silly, this was dumb, my hopes and cares were contradicting each other and now I'm here

I can hear some strange noises slowly making it's way over to me, this is it, this is how I'll move on to the afterlife, assuming there even is one, but these sounds don't sound very friendly. I'm amwzed to have landed somewhere where there seems to be a population, but that doesn't mean I'm not still a little warry of whoever or whatever they are and what they might do to me

I felt something cold and rubbery grab me and pick me up, I shut my eyes and felt a shiver go through my weakened body, not willing to try and see what these things are, they were saying something as they took me away

I kept hearing strange, small noises as they kept moving, still grabbing onto me, I decided to try and be a little brave and cracked open one of my eyes, trying to take a peak around at my surroundings, because so far, nothing to horrible has happened to me, but the intense pain through me is making it hard for me not to flinch at random moments and close my eyes again.
From what I saw, I'm in a dark, grey-ish yellow place, I think I can hear growling ? It sounds like something is growling or Maybe talking ? Maybe this thing speaks a language I don't understand.. but then again, my species is supposed to understand any language.

They put my down on something even colder, but instead of being rubber, it was metalic and thin, I hissed and writhed, my pain now suddenly not allowing me to stay still. The thing that held me earlier grabbed onto me, forcing me to stay still, I heard more weird noises, they were louder this time, this is all far too overwhelming for me !!

I tried to bite whatever was holding me but I wasn't able to, I could feel the fear in me rising, but maybe they're just trying to help me and I'm taking this the wrong way ? But who's to say they're helping ??
Why do I keep going back and forth between not caring for death and then fearing it ?? Perhaps I just want a peaceful death.. because if this is how I go then I'm not for it

Soon enough, I was freed, but far too tired to move, I didn't try to bother to pay attention to whatever they were saying, I'm too tired and I honestly don't want to hear it, I just want a nice passing or maybe to be helped ?

I was picked up again and taken elsewhere, this time I just lightly hissed as I felt a bit drowsy and dizzy, I've grown a massive headache from the pain and stress and I want it to be over now. What other cold thing do they have prepared for me ? Surely if they wanted me dead, they would've done so already.

I think me going back and forth between conflicting thoughts is messing with my head, I should just let things take it's course, not like I could even defend myself against these things, they seem to be far taller than I am.

Then I was dropped
It was smooth.. liquidy.. and relaxing.. huh..
I feel.. oddly enough a lot better ! Is this some magical healing liquid ? I feel great now !!

I opened my eyes and through the thing I was put inside of, I could see them. Tall, weirdly shapes beings, the have a box, and legs attached below and arms attached to the top corners on the sides, and some pole holding up what seems to be their heads, and they're wearing weird things and have black hands.. they're intimidating me.. but maybe that's just because they look weird to me, maybe I'll get used to them

I relaxed and rested at the bottom of this container and those people soon left, now that I'm calmer and better, I think I'll just sleep this all off.. and I'll feel a loooot better.. I can try communicating with them when I wake up, hopefully they'll understand me, there's a lot I want to ask. But I know I shouldn't start trusting them too fast, but hey, they did something nice for me ! I can at least try to be nice back, it's best not to anger the hand that feeds after all.. yaaawwwwnnm...