TPP
"I have." Levi responded.
The words spiraled in Erwin's head, he felt his heart shatter completely. His muscles tensed and he swallowed quietly. Who would've known two words could be so, cruel? He realized he was showing how hurt he was and quickly switched the attention back onto Levi.
"Oh, shit. I'm sorry--If I knew you had a boyfriend I never would have kissed you like that." Erwin apologizes, beginning to sit up. Levi puts his hands on Erwin's chest and shoves him back down, snuggling into his chest.
"Me and him aren't dating anymore. Chill." Levi chuckled, wrapping Erwin in an embrace. Erwin let out a sigh of relief, his muscles relaxing.
Levi began playing with Erwin's hair again. It was a bit shorter than usual, as he had buzzed it in the military. Levi was glad he wasn't with Erwin during that era, he hated how men looked with buzzed hair.
Erwin pulled his face down for a sensual kiss, taking Levi out of his thoughts. His hands traveled down to grope Levi's ass, a habit he had formed when they were dating. Levi gasped and removed his lips from Erwin's. Erwin realized what he did and snatched his hands away as quickly as he could. Levi started laughing and Erwin blushed, embarrassed.
"Sorry, force of habit." Erwin said sheepishly. Levi was still laughing, making the blush on Erwin's cheeks deepen. Levi came down from the high of his laughing fit and stared down at Erwin lovingly.
"I waited for you." He finally said. Erwin raised an eyebrow at this.
"What?"
"For 4 years. I believed you would discharge yourself early and come back to me, come see me again. I gave up at the 5th year, that was when I started dating again." He averted his gaze to Erwin to make sure he was okay with hearing this.
"We dated for a while, but we broke up 7 months ago because he was upset I wouldn't have sex with him. He said he felt like I didn't find him attractive anymore, and that I was hurting him." Erwin hated to admit it, but he loved the fact no one else got to have sex with Levi. Even if they're exes, Levi was his. They were eachother's first time, and in Erwin's mind, that made Levi bound to him. He hated to have such selfish thoughts, but he couldn't help it.
"Why didn't you want to have sex with him?" Erwin asked out loud before he could stop himself. He had a slight hint of amusement to his tone, which Levi caught.
He laughed slightly before answering. "I'm sure you like the fact no one has seen me naked since you left." He sarcastically remarked.
Now it was Erwin's turn to laugh, his deep voice resognating through the living room. Levi laughed with him and laid his head on Erwin's chest, his cheek pressing against the muscles.
"I saw you in him. Like, whenever he did anything intimate with me, I could only think of you. I know it's not fair to him, but you were my first time. It's hard to not think about you when doing such a thing with someone else."
They were silent for a while, neither knowing what to say. Erwin liked the silence, it was comforting. But soon broken when Levi spoke again.
"What about you? Have you moved on at all?" Levi asked.
"No, couldn't. Relationships aren't exactly allowed in the military. I mean, theres a chance they might die, so what's the point anyway?" As soon as he said it, he regretted it. Mostly because that was exactly what Levi had said to him when they broke up.
He stiffened at the thought and Levi felt this. He sniffled and he could feel the strong pull at his throat, signifying he was close to crying.
"I'm so sorry." The words came out in a hushed whisper, but Erwin heard them.
