it seemed like everyone had broke down tonight. But I'm their own time.
first was Jane.
after everyone said their goodnights after dinner, Jane walked up to her room. nobody thought anything was wrong with her, but since the slender departure, she's been a wreck. But she's a pro at not showing it. She trudges up to her room and falls face first on her pillow; immediately shadowing herself in pillows and blankets. And she cries. She cries her eyes out. Or cries until she passes out. Slender was her everything. And something so small from her past had sent him away. She wanted him back, and the mere thought of him sent her into a watery mess. She had never been so down in her life..
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Next was Hoodie.
He was dying inside at the fact that Ben was gone. And he blamed it all on Masky. He would constantly cuss Masky out at the smallest things; secretly blaming him. He hated the fact that Ben left, and he didn't at least try to stop him. 'write me' that's all he said. he felt like such an idiot. The night him and Ben had played over and over in his mind, sending him into a complete tear filled tantrum. He would normally go into Ben's room, which was now nothing but boxes and storage items. The first step he took in there just killed him. He could barely make it to the middle of the room. He thought he'd never get over Ben...
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Next, believe it or not, was Jeff. He'd never think he'd be someone to cry. But he did. Every night he'd regret making that promise to Liu. He wanted to be dead so bad. Not necessarily because of Ben, but because of his past. About Him always being unhappy. He was done. But he doesn't break promises. He may lie, but he does not break promises. And that's something he'd never want to do. He couldn't take up self harm, just because he doesn't feel pain. The last pain he felt was him being burnt in that fight. He'd never felt pain again. After that pain for him was done. So, every night he'd cry silently. Blaming himself for everything. Regretting every little choice he made. He'd never felt worse. And Ben, Ben was his best friend. He loved that little fucker. But, he slightly understood why he left. But he just wanted things to go back to normal. Him and Ben killing on their own. Before he decided to settle down and do this house bullshit. He wanted things to go back to normal..
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Next was Masky..
He missed Ben. Missed him dearly. He needed him. And he regretted sleeping with Toby. He blamed this on him; Much like Hoodie blamed it on Masky, but with much less rage. He didn't talk to Toby. He'd cut him off. He wanted Ben back. He was Ben's first time, and that meant everything to him. Part of him knew Ben couldn't just throw that away, but thinking about it made him ball his eyes out. And he just happened to think about it every night..
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Lastly was Sally..
But for her own reason. The reason that everything seemed to be falling apart. Everyone was leaving. Everyone was mad at each other. And when everybody thought they were crying silently, Sally heard them. Walking down the halls at night, you'd hear tears at almost everyone's door. Except or Toby's, Diane's, and Ben's. Since Ben isn't there anymore. Hearing everyone cry was heartbreaking to Sally. She was so small, she didn't understand. Nobody talked about it. But she wanted to change that. And she was going to...
