Housemates

The cycle continues

Aaron

I'm tired.

I'm constantly exhausted and I can't help it. No matter how much sleep I get I'm always tired. I'm tired from this constant feeling I get from my parents.

Who suddenly started acting like everything's fine once Arianne showed up. We are far from okay. Well I know I'm not.

Who's going to tell Aria that the only reason she's here is because my mom thinks I need someone to help me with the loss of my best friend. How could she do that to someone? I mean seriously it's not fair to Aria. She shouldn't be responsible for my healing.

No one should.

My mom's ridiculously obsessed with making sure things are normal when they aren't and haven't been for years.

She's cheating on her husband left and right while he's working his ass off to provide for us.

It's breaking all of us.

When I first found out about my mom it was in year 7. I'm a senior now and it's just now hitting me. I guess with the stuff that went down this year, everything is coming at me all at once. It makes me feel disgusted and angry because my dad won't get a divorce, for my sake by the way as if I give a fuck.

I'd rather them split then hear the arguments.

I can't stay home anymore because the sight of them both together makes me sick.

She's  constantly finding new reasons to be mad at my father it's not fair. She's always mad at him and when she's not she's mad at me. I feel like I'm a constant reminder of her biggest mistake. She never wanted to get married or have kids early on with my father but here I am. The first and only kid. Who somehow always manages to do something wrong. And then there's my dad. I feel like he's constantly trying to not see us. He sees us for like a day and then disappears and it sucks because he's the sweetest person but he doesn't realize that him not being around kind of bothers me.

What makes all of this worse is that I don't have the heart to tell my dad his wife's cheating on him.

And I can't. Moms so manipulative and controlling to the point I'm pretty sure she'd gaslight me into thinking I never saw what saw on October 14th.

Aria's voice brings me back to reality.

"Hey, your mom told me to tell you that she wants you to take her to your aunt's tomorrow" she says standing by my door.

I lift my head up to actually look at her, I don't how long I've had my head on the desk.

"You look like shit" she points out.

"Can you close the door" I tell her.

"No. I'm talking to you" she objects.

Can she stop being a bitch for one day.

"You take her" I retort.

"I can't drive" "and she's your mom" she adds.

I roll my eyes as I grab my car keys and get up. Aria stops me by the door.

For fucks sake man.

"You sure you're okay to drive?" She asks sounding genuine.

Oh so now she cares.

"Just leave me alone" I push her lightly out of the way.

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Tell me why I'm at McDonald's right now.

No- tell me why I'm at McDonald's with Aria right now.

At 2 in the morning.

She wouldn't let me leave alone so she invited herself to McDonald's with me even though I never planned to come here in the first place.