Alex’s POV
“They aren’t clear for driving” a distance voice says, her voice is muffled from the loud music and chattering that surrounds her.
“Huh?” I mumble idiotically
“Jasey and Meg are off somewhere in the dance floor, I hope they aren’t going to get into any major trouble. I have already called a taxi for Meg and myself but I think Jasey would be safer if she’s with you. They are practically unconscious already” she huffs.
“I am on my way there, thank you!” I press the end call button quickly before snatching my car key and jog into the garage. Damn it, Jasey, why can’t you just control your drinking? I mean I don’t mind picking her up anytime, but this…anxiety, this restless feeling inside me whenever she isn’t in control of herself is scary. I am just afraid for her.
I drive quickly to the place Meg’s cousin gave me. It turns out that she saw Jasey and Meg in the bar and found them in a not very good shape. Thank goodness she’s there or Jasey might have stubbornly try to drive for herself. Good thing too that the place isn’t that far away from my place, at least I can be there before I grow even more restless.
I shove my way in, pushing drunken idiots away from my path, I crammed my neck to catch a glimpse of Jasey, dammit Jasey, show yourself to me…
“Alex!” a woman with strawberry blonde hair waves to me, I don’t know her but she knows me, maybe she’s Meg’s cousin.
“Hi” I walk over to her, “I’m Hayley, Meg’s cousin nice to meet you” she smiles friendlily.
“Nice to meet you too” I return her smile, “Thanks for the call, now, where’s Jasey”
“You’re really worried about her, aren’t you?” she smirks, tilting her head to her right, “she’s over there”
Jasey walks limply around, her hair hangs over her shoulder, her face is completely red and she looks strangely…adorable. She looks like a lost kid, making her way out of the crowd just to be drowned inside again. I can see several guys trying to hold her as she bumps everyone around her, no, I’d have to get her home now. She’s becoming such an easy prey in this kind of situation.
“Thanks again!” I call out to Hayley, nearly sprinting towards Jasey.
“Jasey…” I catch her as she trips, holding her close to me and pulling her out of the suffocating crowd. She studies me, her eyes wide with excitement.
“ALEX!” she throws her arms around me suddenly, almost knocking me off to the ground. I grab her waist, keeping us steady. She hugs me tightly and clings on to me, “I thought you’d never be here. I can’t find any snuggle buddy, everyone is so busy” she snorts, “I am so glad that you’re here, you’re so nice to snuggle to, you’re like a giant teddy bear” she giggles.
I remember about our first time together all of a sudden, seeing her at the same state as several years ago. The difference would be now I am sober and she’s the only one drunk. She hasn’t changed much though; she’s still a clingy drunk. She still talks too much and she is too happy.
As soon as I get us out of the sea of people, I took her to my car quickly and strap her seatbelt for her before going inside the driver seat; I am going to ask Jack to get her car later…
“Jasey…” I start, as she clings on my arm, “I need to drive now and it’s hard with you weighting my arm down. You don’t want us to crash now do you?” It’s like I am talking to a toddler right now. She smiles at me and shakes her head, “I am sorry” she slumps her back to the seat, staring the road ahead.
“Have I ever told you about my biggest fear?” she asks, her voice distant and cold all of a sudden. I don’t like it, her voice is usually so full of warmness and at times like this, when her voice turns hard and cold, I know that she’s reliving something she desperately tries to push aside for a long time.
“Jasey…”
“I am very afraid, frightened, I am most scared of getting left behind. I am afraid that someday, everyone would leave me and I will be alone…just me…it’s like that dream when you wake up and you find that everyone’s gone…sometimes I am afraid it will become my new reality” she continues, her eyes closed, “You, Alex, is the best thing that ever happened to me. You have brought me into your world where everyone is so close and everyone’s a family…you, Jack, Zack, Rian, Cass, double Matts, Jeff, everyone…But you are the best of the best. You haven’t made me feel all-alone since the day I met you…it’s like you’re my savior and I’m clinging on your company…” she giggles at the last part. I feel my face hot and my heart beats faster, drunken words are true words, right?
“I am so, very grateful that we met and you become my best of the best buddy” and so are you, Jasey. I swallow my unspoken words, knowing that she wouldn’t remember anything I’d say, but I know she knows, she always knows.
I pulled up at my garage not long after that, helping her out of the car and bring her to my room. She clings on my arm all the while, not once letting me go.
“You’ve been the best person ever, I really hope you’d find your happiness” she sits on my bed, looking at me. Her face suddenly flatters and she bites her lips, looking like she’s going to cry.
“Jasey…are you okay?” I pull her into my arms as we lay down on the bed.
“It’s just that…” she chokes, “it’s just that I really want you to be happy but I am honestly dreading the time you’d go and find a girl you truly love and then you’d leave me all alone. I really, really want you to eventually find that girl, Alex, but then in the same time, you’d then have to leave me and you’ll forget about me and I will be alone just like when Dad left mum and I.” she sobs quietly inside my arms, I feel like a big hole just opened up in my chest. I don’t want to think about the day I’d have to leave Jasey. If she puts it that way, the picture of her and some other guy is just as painful. I don’t know why, but I don’t want her to leave me and I have never had any thoughts on leaving her.
The girl I would love, the guy she would love. Other people that will come into our lives…I want to tell them to keep away from us and to leave us alone. I couldn’t even bear the image of Jasey and some other guy. I tighten my arms around her, pulling her closer to me, pressing my lips on the top of her head, “shh, Jasey, don’t think about any of that now…”
But I am the one who can’t seem to stop thinking about that. If I break our agreement…if I fall for Jasey, if I violate our agreement of no string attached…she’d leave me, wouldn’t she? Would she run from me like I would break her? If I can’t keep my side of the promise…would she still stick to my side or would she run and hide?
“Alex…” she whispers, bringing her face close to me, I don’t even mind the smell of alcohol reeking from her. She brushes her lips on mine before I mold our lips together; “I really, really hope you’d never leave me” she whispers before pressing her lips to mine again and slides down into my arms, snoring gently with a peaceful expression, one that I’ve seen so many times before.
I would easily say that I would never leave her and I would do my best not to ever leave her…but would she leave me? Would she be the one to leave once she knows that I am on the verge of breaking the agreement? I would never leave her…but maybe keeping a slight distance to help me from breaking my promise would keep her around me…would it?
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FanfictionJasey is a girl that Alex talked to when she was lost in a festival and since that they become friends that leads to them taking advantages of each other. Will this relationship works for them?
