Jack’s POV
Have I told you about how I think Jasey and Alex would hit a bumpy road soon? How I think that when they get to that point, it will drift us apart? When I basically act like a freaking psychic…? Well, surprise-surprise, it is happening.
Alex called me a couple days ago, asking me to get Jasey’s car at some place. When I drove the car back to Alex’s place, he greeted me like he was just told a grieving news. His face was frantic and full of worry; it worries me. But Alex didn’t want to tell me what’s bothering him and he was lost in his thoughts almost too many times that day. I am partially sure Jasey was oblivious to that; she was too busy mending her hangover, which looked pretty bad.
Things went down hill from that though. Jasey was too busy with her work that I don’t know how it suddenly piled up, sometimes when she came to hang around with us, she’d be too dazed to notice anything. As to Alex, he’s trying his hard to be the same, but he’s just not the same. He didn’t go straight to Jasey every time we’re together; he would try to make up any scenarios to make me sit between the two of them. He tried to limit his time alone with Jasey and I don’t know why he does that. At least, it wasn’t awkward to be around them…but then; it became the most uncomfortable thing anyone could ever do, you know, to be around those two. Jasey’s not as beat up by her work anymore that she started to pick things up and I know she noticed how Alex tried to make some distances between him and her. I know she’d pretend that she doesn’t care when I could see that she’s upset and confused by that. Alex would try to make everything seems normal, except he’d be talking to me all the time as if he’s trying not to talk to Jasey, while Jasey tries to make Alex talks to her. Seriously, it’s worst than being the third wheel. But maybe that’s because I am used to be the third wheel, but I don’t think I’d ever get used to this…thing, whatever this is.
Recently though, Jasey has put some distance to all of us, which is a shame, she’s a really fun girl to hang out with and it’s never dry with her around. Now, she limits her time with us and sometimes, I can see that she’s uncomfortable to be here. I don’t know though, just my opinion, I am not an expert on this kind of thing. Honestly, I don’t want to lose Jasey as a part of our little family, she’s been a great joy to be with, she’d even tell us when we don’t play the songs well when she comes to our practices. She’s like that honest voice we need. I don’t know why Alex’s pushing her out even though she tries to stand her ground. I know it’s not easy to stay put when someone pushes you out, and she did break, she’s slowly backing away from us. I don’t like this; I don’t like this at all.
“Alex…” I start, putting my chips down on his coffee table.
“Yeah?”
“Why do you make Jasey leave?”
“Gosh, Jack, just go straight to the point,” he mutters sarcastically, shooting me a glance. I shrug at him; I honestly can’t find a better way to put it.
“It’s just that…I miss her, it’s been a week since we last hang out together, she hasn’t even called…I wonder if she has found another me…” I mutter.
“I do not push her away…” Alex replies crisply
“Yes you did”
“No I didn’t! Shut up, Jack!” he increases the TV volume. I know that he’s in a denial; even idiots could see it from him.
“Do you know how painfully awkward it was to be around you guys? It was worse than me being the usual third wheel!” I steal the remote and turn the volume down, forcing the sulky Alex to see me.
“I want to keep her around…” he says silently
“What…?” that’s the last thing I had expected to hear.
“I want to keep her around and the best way to keep her around me, around us, is to keep some distance between her and me…”
“Get your shit together, Gaskarth!” I jump off my seat, barely holding back not to slap him, “you weren’t putting some distance, you were clearly pushing her away in the least gentle way anyone could ever do. She was trying to stay put and to hold on with us but you made it impossible!”
“But if I break our agreement, she’d leave me, us, forever…” his voice is breaking, I’m conflicted now between being mad at him or giving him a hug.
“Alex…I am not sure if she’d come back after the way you treated her this past week, she looks like she’s hurting you know…” I keep my voice soft, looking at the mess of my best friend next to me. He doesn’t answer me; he keeps his head on his knees, watching the TV with no interest. He’s just a mess right now.
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It’s been two weeks and it’s getting ridiculous. I miss Jasey, even Zack almost confessed the same thing. We miss her in our little group and since I can’t take this anymore, seeing how Alex is slowly losing his mind, me, being my nosy self, decide to pay her a visit. Surely it wouldn’t be that bad to finally see her.
“Jasey!” I squash her in a bone-crushing hug as soon as she appears in the front door. Jasey laughs, wrapping her arms around me, “Hi, Jack”
“How are you?”
“Just fine, work is getting a bit too much since Matt is in a bad mood ever since he and Meg broke up though. I hate Meg right now” she sighs, leading me to the living room. Her place is a mess, papers everywhere, dirty dishes, untidy rooms, leftovers on the table, gosh, and I thought she’s a woman.
“Too busy to take care of yourself?”
“No time for tidying, Jack. Although I don’t mind if you want to be my bitch and start cleaning this place up” she smirks, handing me a glass of cranberry juice. I am glad she hasn’t changed much although I can’t deny; she does look very tired and messy and…sad…?
“Jasey…are you okay?” I ask her, partially surprising myself by the question. It isn’t the question I meant to ask her, but she looks…broken.
“What are you talking about?”
“Uh…you know…why haven’t you been hanging with us?” I am kind of afraid of mentioning Alex at this point,
“Well…” she doesn’t seem like she knows what she’s going to say either.
“Is it Alex?” I say slowly, she gives me a wry smile in return, “I am sorry, but you can just tell me anything you know…how you feel about anything…”
“Maybe he has found someone way better than me. I mean, I am a mess with too much baggage from my past and he had to take care of me when I was drunk…maybe he’s getting tired of my shit and he has found someone better in anyway possible but he’s just too kind to actually tell me that” she ducks, avoiding looking at me, “maybe he just doesn’t want me to know who she is yet, or he doesn’t want ‘her’ to know me…” her voice is cracking.
“Jasey…” I walk closer to her and when she tilts her head to me, her eyes are watery and right at that moment I feel really, really bad, “I am sorry” I pull her into a hug, she stays there, not even bothering to reply my hug.
“Jack…I am scared…” I can feel her back shook as she timidly return my hug.
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Guess Alex just doesn't have the balls to tell her :c
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No Idea (@carolimelda)
FanficJasey is a girl that Alex talked to when she was lost in a festival and since that they become friends that leads to them taking advantages of each other. Will this relationship works for them?
