Cold Hands, Warm Heart ✧ Minsung ✧

#39

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In the taxi back home, Jisung was hugging Felix like he would disappear the next second.

"I'm going to take you home," Felix said, looking at Jisung's face and brushing his hair. "I'll take care of you," he said, caressing his cheek and drying his tears with his thumb.

"I don't wanna go home... I don't wanna be alone," Jisung held Felix's shirt and buried his face on his chest.

"So, let's go to my house, okay?" Felix said, drawing circles on Jisung's back trying to comfort him.

Jisung nodded, all he could do was cry.

When Felix got home late at night, Chan left his bedroom as he heard some noises. He saw Jisung in Felix's arms and that made him dryly swallowed.

Felix shared a brief look with Chan and stopped his steps, then Jisung started to babble and looked at Felix crying, so Chan realized that they weren't in their right minds.

"Is everything okay, Felix?" Chan asked, concerned about the youngsters.

"Yeah, he just needs to rest," Felix answered and walked them both to his own bedroom.

"Ahn, okay," Chan just stayed in the middle of the room, looking at Felix's bedroom door closing in front of him.

Felix and Jisung lay down on the bed, cuddling. Felix started to slide his fingers through Jisung's hair.

"I'm sorry, Felix," Jisung said, with his head on Felix's chest.

"It's okay, I told you to call me, and I'm happy you did," Felix replied.

After some time, Jisung was feeling better, and they shared a cigarette in bed.

"Are you feeling better?" Felix asked still concerned, looking at Jisung he handed the cig to the older.

"Yeah, thanks," Jisung said while the smoke was leaving his lips, then he looked down. "But I think I won't be able to sleep like this."

"Aren't you tired?" Felix tilted his head, looking at him.

Jisung shook his head. "No, I'm not. After my panic attacks, I just can't sleep properly. Every time it happens, I spend hours just watching the ceiling at home."

"Do you want to watch a movie or something?" Felix's face got closer to Jisung's, his eyebrows were furrowed.

"Perhaps..." Jisung looked down. "Do you have anything to drink?" he shyly asked. "I just feel like I need it."

He always did that after this kind of situation happened, he knew it wouldn't help in the end, but he can't stand feeling this way, he just doesn't want to be left alone with his own thoughts right now.

"Are you sure?" Felix was surprised.

"Yeah," he nodded.

"Well, if that will make you feel better, I'll drink with you," Felix said and went to his closet, coming back with a bottle of green apple vodka and two glasses.

"Oh, why do you have this in your closet?" Jisung was pouting, curious.

Felix smiled. "It's a secret," he served both of them, and Jisung drank everything right away.

"Oh, wow! You really needed it," Felix said and drank everything from his glass too right away, serving another round for both of them. Felix tried to drink again in one go, but the taste wasn't so pleasant and made some disgusted faces.

Jisung, who wasn't in his right mind, started to laugh uncontrollably.

"Hey, hey, it's your turn, you drink it," Felix pointed at him.

After they finished the whole bottle, they were both so wasted.

Felix was clinging to Jisung, cuddling the older and drunkenly smiling for no reason. He was so happy to be with the one he loves, even though he knows his love is one-sided.

Jisung was out of his mind while hugging the younger. "I miss you..."

"I missed you too. Feel better, Ji?" Felix said, smiling at him while caressing his face.

Jisung looked at him and smiled, nodding.

Felix saw again his happy face, his eyes closed, his cute cheeks, his sweet smile, without a single thought he cupped his cheeks, leaned and just left a kiss on the older's lips without a warning "that's good," he said and smiled.

Jisung was in shock, looking at Felix's eyes and then at his lips trying to process the kiss, in that exact moment he couldn't deny it was good, he thought it was what he needed to forget everything then he leaned and kissed him back. He didn't think about his friend's feelings, he just selfishly thought about his own feelings, he just did what he needed to empty his head and heart.

To the soft touch of their lips began a bitter taste of vodka coming from their tongues colliding, Felix instinctively held Jisung's waist bringing him closer, he started to trace kisses down his neck leaving hickeys all over it.

Things heated up pretty quickly as Jisung's moans started to echo in the bedroom and they couldn't stop themselves.

"Can I...make you feel good?" The drunk words whispered as he wasn't thinking straight a long time ago.

This was going crazy at this point, a desperate "please" left his mouth, he wanted to release all the frustration, as he grabbed in a fist the bed sheets.

A wave of pleasure took control of his body, the feeling of the wet and soft tongue working on him made him groan loudly "aaaah~", "f-fuck- I'm- I'm- coming, stop-", he grabbed the messy hair.

"I'll make you feel really good" He pecked his lips and one finger after another made the boy under him cry for more. The boy moaned so loudly that he couldn't hold it anymore; he just wanted to slide himself inside him and make the boy below him call his name.

"Please-, do it slowly-" He whispered, he was tensely holding the other boy's arms tightly.

He noticed and kissed him, sweet and gentle, feeling every inch of their bodies together.

Inside their kiss he felt relaxed, he moved his hands to feel the soft skin of his back up until his neck ,not letting go of the kiss, they hugged not letting their thoughts win, not wanting to wake up to reality just releasing their emotions on one another.

Soon after, they collapsed onto the bed, gasping for air and in a few seconds drifting to the dream land.

However, one person in the house won't be able to sleep tonight after hearing the unholy sounds coming from the bedroom beside.

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