You understand me - Minsung

Chapter 28

They were hanging out at Chan's house, as usual on weekends. Jeongin was there, they had started to get really along with Chan's boyfriend, even though they could only see him on weekends.

They were all scattered everywhere in the living room, most of them on the ground, trying to survive from the heat, with drinks and fans. You could hear muffled whines from time to time, the boys annoyed by the hot weather.

"Ugh it's too hot" Changbin said, whining.

"You complaning won't make us cool down" Minho nagged as Changbin flipped him off.

"I can't bear with it anymore" Felix answered, fanning himself with his hand

"Oh my god I have the biggest idea" Chan said as he stood up excitedly "Let's go to a swimming pool tomorrow" Chan said

Everyone got excited, but Minho answered immediately, not even hesitating.

"No" He said, loud enough for everyone to hear. All the boys whined at Minho's reaction.

"Ohh come on Min" Chan said

"Party pooper" Hyunjin said, and quickly bowed apologetically as Minho glared at him.

"It's going to be fun" Felix said to Minho but he shook his head.

"No" He said again firmly.

"Why?" Jisung asked as he looked at the boy

Minho looked at Jisung in the eyes.

"I don't want to" He said, sounding annoyed but Jisung saw something else in his eyes.

He didn't know how, but he understood. He saw in his eyes how terrified he looked, he saw the despair and fear coming out from him.

"But swimming is fun, and it will cool you down" Felix tried again, but Minho didn't even answer this time.

"Okay, but if you change your opinion, you can still come with us Minho" Chan said as he smiled at him, but Minho just looked to the ground, feeling suddenly down.

For the rest of the afternoon, they organized their hang out. They decided which swimming pool they'll go to, debating on which one was the best, and decided at what time they should go.

Minho stayed mostly silent, feeling a bit off, even when Jisung tried to talk to him and distract him. But to no avail, Minho was definitely lost in his thoughts.

As they left Chan's house, Jisung naturally went back to Minho's home, and they walked to there in complete silence.

Minho didn't even realize he wasn't talking, he wasn't mentally there, too lost in his emotions to actually realize.

Jisung got the clue, and let him be for a moment. Minho needed some time for himself.

As they arrived at Minho's house, Jisung stopped.

"Do you want to be alone?" Jisung asked but Minho didn't answer

"Minho?" He said, louder

"Huh?" Minho asked, shaking his thoughts off and realizing he wasn't listening

"Do you want to be alone for a moment?" He asked

"Oh no" Minho said as he pulled Jisung to his house "It's okay"

"You seem a bit off" Jisung said but Minho just shrugged.

They went to his garden and laid down, as they're used to.

They laid there in silence, a silence that was killing Jisung that was dreading to get some words out of Minho.

"Min" Jisung said

"Mmh?" Minho answered, his eyes kept closed.

"I think I know why you don't want to go to the swimming pool" He said unsure.

"What?" Minho looked at him, his eyes showing how uneasy he felt about this conversation.

"I think I know the reason" Jisung said, and Minho gulped loudly.

How can he understand me so well?

"There's no reason" He lied and turned back to the sky.

"I can see that you're lying" Jisung stated reassuringly "I'm not mad, I understand"

Minho didn't answer, because the second he heard Jisung's reassuring words, a sob escaped his mouth.

Jisung sat up in a panic, he wasn't expecting Minho to cry so hard so suddenly. He hugged him tightly as Minho started sobbing violently, letting out all the tears he had been keeping in for the whole afternoon.

Jisung didn't say anything, he let the boy cry as he slowly caressed his back to comfort him, sometimes humming melodies to try to get Minho's calm back.

After some time, Minho had calmed down, Jisung could only hear regular sniffing. He looked at his face, his eyes puffy and tightly closed.

"I don't want them to look at me like I'm weird" Minho said, his voice broken from the cries

"Then tell them" Jisung said softly

"I can't" Minho blurted out as more tears left his eyes.

"It's okay" Jisung said as he continued caressing his back.

"I won't go" Minho insisted and Jisung nodded.

"You don't have to" Jisung said reassuringly and he heard the whispered 'thanks' coming out of Minho.

"I can stay with you if you want" Jisung asked, and he smiled as Minho opened his eyes and shook his head left to right quickly

"No, I want you to have fun" Minho explained "You don't have to" 

"Then I'll go, but I'll come see you right after I come back. I'll tell you everything that happened and I'll show you pictures" Jisung said and Minho wore a ghost of a smile

"Okay" He said simply "I'll walk with you to Chan's tomorrow" He added, and Minho smiled.

"Okay"

"Ugh I feel exhausted" Minho said as he sat up

"I can imagine, you cried a lot"

"It's embarrassing" Minho said as he hid his face

"It's not" Jisung comforted "You look cute when you cry"

"You're a sadist" Minho said and Jisung chuckled

"Yep" He answered as he stood up, helping Minho up "Let's get you to bed you crybaby" He joked and Minho glared at him

"I'll kill you" He said threateningly and Jisung started running back to the house, as Minho ran after him, ready to tackle him.