You understand me - Minsung

Chapter 42

Minho's parents had arrived, and they were bringing the two boys back by car.

The car ride was agonizingly silent. No one dared to talk, and no one knew what to say anyway.

Both Jisung and Minho were sitting at opposite sides, looking outside.

Jisung started fiddling with his coat, thousands of thoughts running in his mind, thoughts that shut down instantly as he felt Minho's hand grabbing his own. He didn't turn to look at him, he just tightened his grip around Minho's hand, relaxing on his touch.

As they arrived at Minho's house, they kept silent.

Minho was silently taking his shoes off, taking his time because of the pain he was bearing with, as Jisung was looking at him.

Jisung looked at Aeri, as he sheepishly decided to ask something.

"Can I stay?"

"If you want, and if Minho wants to" Aeri said as she smiled softly at him

"Minho?" Jisung asked as he looked at the boy who wasn't daring to look at him back

"Stay" He said, sure of himself.

"Okay"

Jisung helped Minho for anything. He helped him up the stairs, he brought him his pills and wated, he helped him get in his bed, he helped him treat his wounds, basically putting some ointment on it. He had to put bandages on it for the night, and he was being really careful, his heart breaking every time he heard Minho wincing from the pain.

As he finished, he sighed, getting up and going to his side of the bed, pulling his shirt out of him. Minho stared at him, as his gaze went to his shoulder and he frowned. He brought his hand to the boy's shoulder, softly touching the skin there

"It's bruised, what happened?" He asked, whispering

"You don't remember at all?"

"No"

"I broke the door of your room" Jisung flatly said, but Minho's gaze lowered.

He didn't answer, he just gulped. He was ashamed.

Jisung turned the lights off and joined Minho into the bed.

The bedroom was full of tension. They were scared to touch each other, and they kept on their sides, which was pretty much unusual as the two loved being all cuddly.

And as the time passed, Jisung couldn't sleep. He kept on shuffling from one side to another, uncomfortably.

He was scared to fall asleep. He was scared to open his eyes and see that Minho wasn't by his side.

"Sleep Jisungie" Minho's soft voice broke the silence

"I'm scared" Jisung blurted out, turning to Minho even though he could just see his shape in the dark.

Minho didn't answer for a moment, he was biting his lip hard.

"I'm sorry" He let out, his voice wavering "I didn't want to scare you"

"You're stupid Minho" Jisung said flatly. He had been keeping all this frustration to himself, he couldn't bear with it anymore.

"Are you mad at me?" Minho asked weakly

"Yes ... But no"

"Yes but no?"

"I'm mad because you told me you'll talk to me when you feel bad. But I know you freaked out and that you didn't do all of this for the simple purpose of hurting me. I'm just a bit shocked from all of this" He explained, his voice lowering towards the end.

Minho stood silent, he didn't know what to say. He started crying silently.

"Jisung..." He said, sadness obvious in his voice

"Yes?"

"I don't think I'm good for you" He said as his voice broke at the end

"Why?"

"Because I'm hurting you"

"I've hurt you too, it's okay" Jisung said as he approached a bit from the boy and held his hand.

"I don't want you to be hurting because of me"

"It's okay Minho"

"I'm ill" Minho stated, frowning

"I know. Me too"

"But you're doing so well"

"No"

"You're doing better than I am"

"No." Jisung insisted firmly, as he brought Minho's hand close to his lips "I've just had more time to heal than you. There was a time I was acting just like you. And it's okay, breakdowns a part of the progress"

"What should I do?" Minho asked, despair evident in his voice

"Fight" Jisung insisted firmly

"I'm not strong enough"

"Then I'll give you my strength" He said and kissed Minho's hand.

Minho stood silent for a few minutes, his sniffles being the only sound in the room.

He turned to Jisung, and approached him, his face close to Jisung's one.

"Jisungie" He called

"Yes?"

"I love you so much" He said, as a sob escaped his mouth, tears falling uncontrollably

"And I love you just as much" Jisung responded as he cried as well, his head falling on Minho's chest, as he nuzzled his face there.