You understand me - Minsung

Chapter 36

Minho opened his eyes, and the first thing he saw was Jisung's relaxed face beside him, looking at him lovingly. He smiled as the boy smiled back. 

Minho did ask himself if it was a dream for a minute. He pulled the boy a bit closer, as he felt his naked skin under his hand, and remembered what happened the day before. He smiled shyly.

"Did you sleep well?" Jisung asked, as he traced figures on Minho's bare back

"Better than ever" He said, as he kissed Jisung's nose cutely.

They stayed silent for a moment, just appreciating each other's presence. But Minho started thinking a bit, his mind slightly spiraling.

What are we now?

"Let's talk about what happened, mmh?" Minho asked

"Yes, of course" Jisung smiled, and Minho was happy that Jisung was so open about his thoughts

He didn't know what to say, he started thinking hard about where they should start, but Jisung beated him to it, and he was actually thankful. 

"What did you think of it?" Jisung asked

"Like I ran a whole marathon after training for months" Minho said without thinking and Jisung chuckled

"You were wanting it?" Jisung asked, happy to know there both fantasizing it

"You have no idea"

"I do have" Jisung said with a giggle "I was wanting that too"

"Was it pleasurable?" Minho asked, a bit unsure about his performance

"I literally came into your hand Minho, of course it was" Jisung blurted out and this time, Minho chuckled

"Just wanted to be sure" He said, his ears getting reddish.

He started thinking about how he should ask Jisung about what's next. He wondered longly

Would you be my boyfriend? No, there's no way in hell I'm asking that right now

Should we do this again? Wait, he will think it's just for sex

"And... do you want more?" Minho asked unsure

"More, as in more sexual stuff or more 'more'" Jisung asked, not sure what Minho was implying

"Both"

"Then... maybe yes to both" He answered sheepishly

"Maybe?"

"Depends on what you want"

"I want everything Jisung" Minho said a bit excitedly, smiling from ear to ear to know that Jisung and him were in the same line

Jisung laughed and hit him lightly "Be serious"

"I am. I just really ... want more"

"Then you'll have to invest Min" Jisung said jokingly

"Invest?"

"Buy some lube and condoms, right?" Jisung explained as he chuckled

"Well... Yes" Minho said as a blush started coating his cheeks

They hugged again, appreciating the warmth their bodies were making next to each other.

"Minho?"

"Mmh?"

"What do you think of me?" Jisung mumbled into Minho's chest

Minho took Jisung's head with his hands, wanting to look at him in the eyes. He observed him for a bit before answering.

How can I say 'I loved you since I've put my eyes on you' without scaring him off?

"I'll say that I'm not indifferent to your charm" Minho said, and Jisung chuckled at the weird answer. That was such a Minho's thing to say.

"Cute" He answered "Me neither by the way"

"I don't think I'm ready to say all the things I want to say to you" Minho explained, implying that he did have feelings for him.

"And that's okay, I'll tell you too when the good time comes by"

He doesn't care much about hearing it from Minho, he now knows he does feel something, he just is happy to have him. It's enough for now.

"Can we just agree that we... want each other ... more than physically?" Minho asked, unsure and stressing

"I agree Minho, I want you romantically too" He responded and almost squealed as he saw the sincere smiled that grew on Minho's face

"Do we have to label it?"

"We can wait for that. Let's just agree on the fact that we're exclusive, we'll see the rest later"

"Thank you Jisungie" He answered, giving him a peck on the lips sweetly.

They started their day lazily, they had a hard time getting out of each other's embrace and getting dressed, mostly because Minho didn't want Jisung to put clothes on and started whining annoyingly when he did.

After eating a small breakfast and wandering around the house, they were back in the garden, laying there lazingly.

/!\ TW

"Can I ask you a question?" Jisung asked out of nowhere

"Mmh?"

"When you first told me about your trouble... You told me that something happened. I've been curious since" He said, and Minho knew what he was referring to.

"Why do you keep on trying to get in my head?" Minho joked and smiled as he saw Jisung's soft glance.

"Because I want to know all of you" He said "If that's okay for you"

Minho thinked for a moment. What he was about to say was really hard, and he doesn't think he had opened up about it since it happened.

But somehow, Jisung's presence soothed him, and he felt like he could say anything, he didn't mind.

"Well, my parents discovered how bad my mental health was because I... tried to... you know" He said, not finding the guts in himself to say it out loud

Jisung wasn't expecting that. He expected anything but that. He grabbed Minho's hand and tightened his grip

"Wow..." He let out in complete shock

"Yeah... They found me in the kitchen, passed out. I overdosed on medications I found" Minho explained further, and Jisung continued tightening his grip.

"I.. wow... I don't know what to say"

"It's okay. I haven't try to ... since then"

"When you cut, are you trying to ... you know" Jisung asked, as he turned to him

"No, I think I'm just trying to feel pain" Minho simply answered "It sounds weird, but it's just my skin that feels like it's itching and I need to relieve it"

"Yeah" Jisung said in understanding, but that rose a question into Minho

"Have you self harmed before Ji?"

"Once, but it scared me" He explained

"Good" Minho said, as he raised their tangled hands and kissed Jisung's skin.

Jisung was still a bit surprised from what he heard. He turned to Minho again and kissed his lips tenderly.

"I'm sorry so much happened to you. I want you to be happy Min" He said, and Minho felt his heart burst.

"Then stay with me"