You understand me - Minsung

Chapter 40

Jisung woke up wincing as he was getting shaken by someone. He came out of his slumber as he opened his eyes groggily, seeing Minho's mother beside him.

"Good morning, Jisungie" She said in a soft voice.

Jisung wiped his eyes lazily, as he suddenly realized that she must be there for something regarding Minho. He sat up abruptly.

"Did you find him?" He asked excitedly

"Well, we know where he is" She explained, but she didn't seem happy.

"Where?" He asked, his eyes glistening with hope.

"In Gimpo. He's at his grandparents" She explained, her eyes getting sad

"What? Why?" He said as he picked up his phone and called him. When again, Minho didn't understand, he looked back at Aeri with confusion written all over his face.

"They called me to say that Minho was there, but he didn't say anything apparently. They said that he didn't want to communicate" She explained, her face showing how confused and hurt she was, but also how she tried to not show Jisung what she felt.

"I don't understand" He said, tears brimming at his eyes "Everything was going so well"

"I'm sorry Jisung... I can't understand neither..." She said, tears also starting to form in his eyes.

He didn't want to start crying in front of her, she must be as scared as he is.

He was completely lost, he didn't know what to do at all.

When Aeri left the room, he decided to call Chan and let him know of Minho's whereabouts.

'Ji? do you have news?' Chan asked

"Well, yeah... He's in Gimpo and is isolating himself" Jisung explained, his voice weak

'What?'

"Yeah... I can't understand him neither..."

'That's so odd... Did something happen the day before?'

Jisung gulped "Well, yes. Jaehyun taunted him but... after that, we had a great evening, a great night... Like, everything was going so well... I don't understand"

'What? Jaehyun?'

"Yeah apparently... But he felt better after we talked it out"

'But, we never really know what goes on in his mind Jisung'

"True..." He said, sighing. Chan was right, Minho was unpredictable, and he knew that situation well, he had been in his shoes once.

'Look, we'll wait and see what happens. At least we know where he is'

"Yes..."

'Cheer up a bit Jisungie'

"I'll try"

'Call me if you need anything'

"Thanks... Bye"

He threw his phone on the bed as he passed his hand through his hair. He knew that Minho's sudden outburst must be linked with his dépression, something must have gone wrong in his head... But it was so sudden and random... How could Jisung not have noticed? He was utterly confused.

He decided to go back home. He didn't need to be more in Minho's bed, he felt like trespassing, and he didn't want to keep on making himself sick by thinking about him. But even as he fell into his own bed, he couldn't stop thinking about Minho and worrying about him.

He knew that at this very moment, Minho was going through something hard and that he couldn't do anything to help him, to support him, to simply be around him. He couldn't and he hurt him.

He cried, hard, knowing he was helpless.

He picked up his phone, trying to call him again, but still to no avail, and he cried even harder as he heard the voice messager.

He decided to text him, maybe Minho will take pity and answer

Minho

min

i don't understand

why did you run away?

can we please talk baby?

i need to listen to your voice

please

But even hours after sending them, they weren't even read. And Jisung was getting over the edge.

For the whole following week, Minho didn't come back. He wasn't at school, and he was apparently still in Gimpo and no one was able to tell him how he was, Minho still didn't answer anything.

That was the most painful part, the unbearable fear of not knowing and waiting. For anything, for any sign of him, and that was killing Jisung.

He also thought that he was strong enough to face it, but he wasn't, and couldn't fool anyone.

As he was in the studio with Chan, his mind drifted to Minho, and his whole body stiffed. He started shaking, awfully.

"Ji? Are you okay?" Chan asked as he realized the state his friend was in.

Jisung started breathing heavily, as if he was getting strangled, and tears were running on his cheeks.

Chan started to help him, as much as he could, he helped him take his coat off and fanned his face a bit, trying to bring him space.

When Jisung started calm down a bit, he took his hand and tried to comfort him, knowing that however, Jisung was feeling way too anxious to hear anything.

"I hate that... I want to hear from him"

Chan got mad. He picked up his phone, calling Minho and hoping hard that the boy would answer so he could yell at him for being so stupid.

Jisung watched with hopeful eyes, wanting nothing more than to talk to him.

But of course, he didn't answer. So he decided to text him, even to no avail, he needed to let him know how much Jisung was hurting because of his little crisis.

Evil bunny

if you don't answer right now I'm punching you

jisung isn't doing well at all

As Chan and Jisung sighed, knowing that the boy wouldn't answer, they flinched as they heard a notification from Chan's phone.

im so sorry

minho?

why are you sorry?

answer

you're worrying me

As Jisung read his message, he felt his blood freeze.

He remembered vividly when Minho talked about trying to commit suicide. He knew that Minho was capable of that, and knowing that he ran away to another city to be far from everyone looked suddenly a bit too suspicious.

"Shit" Jisung said, as he picked his things up.

He had an idea now, and he wanted to do it.

So he left school, running to Minho's house. He needed to ask his parents something.