You understand me - Minsung

Chapter 29

For the whole night, Minho didn't sleep much. He stood in his bed with Jisung sleeping in his arms as he thought hard. His conversation with Jisung kept replaying in his mind.

What would happen if I actually open up to them?

As they all decided to go to the swimming pool, even without Minho, they had decided to get together there by joining at Chan's house.

In the morning, Jisung didn't understand as he saw Minho searching for his clothes and putting things in his bag. The boy wasn't going, what was he preparing?

After their heartbreaking conversation, he knew Minho really didn't feel like exposing himself in front of his friends. But since they woke up, Minho was acting strangely.

"Minho?"

"Mmh?"

"Do you have swimming shorts for me? I'm kinda lazy to go back to my house" He asked, trying to sound cute

"Let me see if I have others" Minho said as he left his room.

Jisung stood there confused. Why would Minho need other shorts?

He shrugged it off. It must be some weird Minho's behavior.

He came back and threw some swim shorts at Jisung who thanked him.

After eating some breakfast and after Minho took his pill proudly in front of a chuckling Jisung, they walked to Chan's house.

Minho was odd. He was silent and seemed stressed, which got Jisung really confused.

As they arrived at Chan's house, everyone was already there. They greeted Jisung but stood confused as they saw Minho there.

"Minho? You decided to come?" Chan asked excitedly

"Oh, he's just accomp-" Jisung started but was cut off by Minho

"Yes, but, there is something I need to say" He stated flatly, his hands shaking slightly.

Everyone looked at him apprehensively. They listened to him and looked at him while Minho gathered the courage to speak, taking big breaths.

Jisung was surprised. He knew what Minho was going to say, but he would have never guessed he would actually say it. 

"Yes?" Chan asked as Minho wasn't opening up.

"I self harm" He blurted out and tried to look expressionless, as much as he could.

Everyone froze for a moment. No one except Jisung expected that, but Jisung was still shocked that Minho was strong enough to say it outloud. No one would have ever imagined Minho would do something like that. They blinked and stayed silent, something that wasn't helping Minho's stress.

"You what?" Chan asked again, thinking he didn't hear correctly.

"I have scars, and I have depression" He blurted out again and all of their faces fell for a second.

Jisung had never felt so proud of Minho. That was the first time he actually had the guts to say his trouble out loud, and this time it was in front of all his friends. He took his hand reassuringly and caressed his palm with his thumb, showing him all the comfort he could.

They kept silent and Minho tried to fill the blank, the tension was unbearable to him.

"So please don't look at me like I'm a freak" He asked, as he looked at the ground.

Suddenly, they all reacted.

They ran to Minho and tackled him to the ground in hugs. They kissed him, hugged him, caressed his hair in between words of encouragement and laughs.

"Hey Minho, look" Felix as he showed him his arms "When I was in Australia, I loved hanging out in the woods and do stupid adventure stuff. I got many scars, look" He said as he showed him each of one of the marks littering his skin. Minho smiled, that was so sweet of him.

"I also have a few on my legs" Chan said as he raised his pants "I used to fall a lot when I was younger and now my legs are full of scars" Chan showed him, and Minho's smile just got bigger.

"To be honest, I'm a bit self-conscious about my body, I would like it if none of you make snarky comments when I'll be in swim wear" Changbin said and Minho just nodded, his smile getting bigger and bigger.

"I also would like to look more ripped, but I'm not. I'm a bit bony" Seungmin said as he caressed his own stomach.

"I hate how my chest look when I'm naked" Hyunjin said, joining them

"Me too, I've always hated my upper body" Jeongin said too.

Minho almost had tears in his eyes as he listened to his friends. None of them showed him pity, they just showed him that they had flaws too, and Minho felt his heart flutter. He knew he did well listening to Jisung. His friends really love him enough to accept him.

"I don't like how my legs look. I think they're really skinny. I also have a way too slim waist, makes me look weird" Jisung said as his eyes were fixated on Minho

He looked at Jisung, who was looking back at him with an endearing look, a proud smile on his face.

"Thank you" He mouthed at Jisung, who shook his head and smiled at him.

Minutes later, they were on the bus, already loud enough to annoy anyone in there.

Jisung and Minho were sitting beside each other, and Minho couldn't stop smiling.

"I didn't thought you would open up" Jisung said as he looked at him proudly "You were amazing" He added

"Thank you" Minho said, a bit embarrassed "I thought about it for the whole night"

"You didn't have to force yourself"

"I didn't" Minho answered as he shook his head "I just felt strong enough with you by my side" He added and Jisung's heart melted.

Jisung didn't say anything. He just kissed him on the cheek and put his head on Minho's shoulder.

It was candid, but Minho felt his heart burst.

He had to stay like that for the whole bus ride, trying to contain the excitment he felt from Jisung's kiss. He wanted to squeal out loud but contained it.

Fuck, I love him.