You understand me - Minsung

Chapter 31

After that tiring day, Jisung followed Minho to his house, as usual. And they were laying in Minho's garden, as usual. They started having their little habits, and the two secretly loved it. 

"I'm happy no one looked weirdly at me" Minho confessed, happily as he smiled to himself.

He was really satisfied from the day. Everything could have gone wrong but it was perfect, he even got an ego boost from the compliments and love he received, his day was going on perfectly, and was ending perfectly with Jisung by his side.

"I don't think our friends would do something like that" Jisung responded.

"Yeah, but other people could have. I went to the beach once during summer, and a little girl asked his mom why my legs looked like that. I went home crying" Minho explained, making it sound like a joke as much as he could.

"Kids should really learn to shut the fuck up" Jisung answered, trying to match his energy, even though he sincerely thought that was sad.

"I know right"

Jisung wanted to know more about Minho's habits, he was deeply curious, but he knew it wasn't correct to ask about such sensitive things. But he didn't want to sugarcoat Minho.

"Is it okay for you to have a conversation about that?" Jisung asked curiously

"I may start crying, but I've already cried a bunch of times in front of you, so you can try" Minho said as he chuckled bitterly

"When did you start?"

"Cutting?"

"Yeah"

"A long time ago actually. Maybe in highschool" Minho said as he thought about it, trying to remember as much as he could "When I started feeling depressed"

"You did it a lot?"

"Depends on how I was feeling I guess. The more depressed I was, the more I did it"

"When was the last time?" Jisung asked unsure

"Before summer" Minho stated a bit lowly

Jisung frowned. He wondered if Minho didn't cut because of him and he suddenly felt guilty, his anxiety rising. Minho looked at him as he wasn't talking for a moment, and saw the deep frown on his face.

"What's happening in that head of yours?" Minho asked softly

"Have you... cut... because of me?" Jisung asked, feeling tears brimming in his eyes.

"Well, not because of you. More like because of me towards you" Minho corrected, deciding to be fully honest with the boy.

"Wow... I'm so sorry" Jisung said, not above a whisper

"You don't have to. None of this is your fault" Minho comforted as he took his hand and tightened it.

Jisung decided to shake his thoughts off. This was about Minho, not about him.

"Do you have a lot of them?" Jisung asked

"Haven't you seen them? It's pretty obvious" Minho answered, strangely not feeling bad talking about it at all.

"I actually didn't. You asked not to watch, I wanted to respect that" Jisung explained and he saw Minho's smile as he said that.

"That's really sweet of you" Minho answered as he looked at him. His heart was fluttering way too much lately.

"I know right" Jisung cockily responded and Minho gave him a little push.

"You were too busy looking at something else anyway" Minho teased.

"What?" Jisung responded as he looked at the boy, red growing on his cheeks.

As the two had their heads turned to each other, they faces were awfully close, but none of them minded.

"You were definetly checking me out at the swimming pool" Minho blurted out

"Huh?? So were you!" Jisung accused as he pointed his finger at Minho

"You're dreaming" Minho answered, taking in his hand Jisung's pointing finger

"I'm not, I've seen it, you're not slick at all Lee Minho"

"Maybe I was" He admitted and Jisung's blush was even more visible

"You pervert" Jisung jokingly said

"Uh? Me?" Minho asked as he widened his eyes

"Yes!"

"You looked at me too!"

"Not my fault" Jisung tried to defend himself as he chuckled at the poor attempt. 

"Who's fault is it then?" Minho asked as he raised an eyebrow teasingly

"Yours! I had never seen you shirtless, I wasn't ready" Jisung blurted out and Minho wasn't expecting that.

Minho felt a big ego boost at that. His crush noticed him because he thought his naked shape was hot? Minho must be dreaming.

"Aw, you got flustered?" Minho smirked as he teased the boy

"Uh? No!" Jisung answered as his face was now flushing with a deep red shade.

"Aww you're blushing" Minho teased as he poked Jisung's cheek

"I'm not" Jisung defended as he pouted

"Don't worry Jisungie, I do think you're hot too" He admitted and Jisung turned to him

"Really?"

"Yeah" Minho said

But suddenly, the two of them got silent as they lost themselves in each other's eyes.

They just admitted having some kind of physical attraction to the others, and now they were so close, looking so intensely. They could easily feel the butterflies flying in their bellies.

Minho wanted to kiss him so bad, he wondered so much what his lips tasted like. But he knew better than the last time he tried. He had promised himself that never again he would try with Jisung, there was no way he would ruin everything, he didn't want to cross Jisung's boundaries again.

What Minho didn't know is that Jisung had the exact same thoughts in his mind now. He was dying to kiss the older, but he was way too anxious to try it.

The two of them felt the tension, and knew that there was something reciprocated between them, but they hadn't the guts. They let the occasion slip between them as they laid back on the grass, detaching their eyes from each other. But, Jisung still slipped his hand in Minho's palm, and Minho didn't hesitate to lace their fingers.