You understand me - Minsung

Chapter 39

Minho was afraid

He was in a cage, he was in the dark, his body shaking.

He couldn't see anything, couldn't do anything, he was terrified.

He started feeling hands on his body, they creeped out of nowhere and pulled Minho, slowly, as he tried to scream but couldn't.

Minho gasped for air as he woke up from his nightmare.

He was panting, all sweaty, as he tried to get back on track.

His brain wasn't functioning, he was freaking out completely

Fuck

Where am I

He looked beside him, seeing the shape of a boy he knew oh too well

Why is he there

He started overthinking everything, stressing himself with unnecessary thoughts.

Does he really likes me ?

I've hurt him yesterday

I'm no good for him

Jaehyun is right... shit.

I can't take care of him

His head gets everywhere, his thoughts are draining him, his mind is spiraling.

Why do I feel so bad right now?

I've been feeling nice lately, can't it stay a bit longer?

Why am I so difficult

Why isn't my head normal

Fuck this

I can't do this anymore

He got up abruptly, picking up the first clothes he spotted and put them on, running away as fast as he could.

When Jisung woke up, he was surprised to see that Minho wasn't spooning him. He opened his eyes, pouting as the other side of the bed was empty. He thought that maybe the boy was in the bathroom, or downstairs with his parents, so he shrugged it off, deciding to sleep a little bit more.

When he woke for the second time, he frowned at the fact that Minho still wasn't there.

He went to the bathroom, seeing that the boy wasn't there.

"Min?" He called from the corridors, still confused as to why the boy wasn't answering

He greets his parents as he arrived at the kitchen but frowned when Minho wasn't there either.

"Hey... Uhm, Minho isn't upstairs, have you seen him?" Jisung asked a bit confused

"What?" His father said, frowning

"I don't know, I haven't seen him since I woke up, I thought he was with you" His mother answered, also frowning in incomprehension

"I'll call him" Jisung said as he dialed his number.

His phone was on, but he didn't answer.

Strange Jisung thoughts, now slightly getting concerned.

He decided to call Chan, then Changbin, then Hyunjin, then all of their friends and none of them was able to tell Jisung where the fuck Minho was.

That's where Jisung started to get deeply worried.

He left the house, starting to search for him everywhere. He went to college, even if it was the weekend, thinking that maybe he wanted to train his dance, but no, Minho wasn't there.

As he walked on the streets, wondering where he should search, he realized his breathing was accelerating. He had no control on how his stress level was rising, but he shook it off, thinking that looking for Minho was his priority right now.

He dialed his number again, and waited during the unfinishable sounds, until it went to his voice messaging. He gulped loudly, and started sweating. He thought hard about where Minho could be, and suddenly had an idea.

He ran fastly through the streets, until he arrived at the park, the park they usually go as a group, the park Jisung had spent so much time with his head on Minho's lap.

It was the last place he could think of.

He arrived and saw that no one was there.

Minho had disappeared completely.

That is when he realized he couldn't breathe. The air was stuck in his lungs, and he fell to the floor, feeling his body bursting and his head light. Jisung was having a panic attack, a hard one, but there was no one to help him. He struggled to breathe, so much he slowly lost consciousness.

When he woke up again, the sun was setting. He had passed out, he couldn't search Minho for the whole day because he stupidly passed out.

He went back to Minho's house with his heart heavy. He hoped that Minho would be there when he arrived, that he would hug him tightly and yell at him for scaring him, but no.

When he arrived, his parents shook their heads. They seemed to be just as stressed as he was.

"I haven't seen him, no one did" Jisung breathed out almost emotionlessly

"It's okay, we're okay. Go to sleep Jisungie, If he isn't there by tomorrow, we'll call the police, okay? He may appear before that" Aeri said as she hugged Jisung, somehow trying to reassure her own self.

"Can I stay here for the night?" He asked, praying for Minho to be there when he wakes up, as if none of that was real.

"Of course Jisung, go take a rest, you need it" She answered, and Jisung soullessly walked upstairs and threw himself on Minho's bed.

He shuffled on the sheets as he took Minho's pillow in his arms. He missed him, and was terrified to know what was going on.

Minho is not mentally stable. Him disappearing like that, out of anyone's sight, even his own parents, it's scary.

Jisung finally let the tears fall out as he tightened his grip on the pillow.