Missing Peace | COMPLETED

Prologue

"Yes, I'm on my way."

I grab my white classic Chanel bag with a gold toned chain while talking to my manager over the phone. I walk towards my huge and human sized mirror to check if I already look good.

I even make a spin para masigurong presentable na ang itsura ko. Ayaw ko namang magmukhang katawa-tawa ngayon, not at this special day. On my special day.

[Shucks, Cams! Your 'I'm on my way' means paalis ka palang sa unit mo! Nasa Pilipinas tayo, traffic. Male-late ka na!]

I chuckled lightly. "Relax. I'm sure I'll be there on time."

[How can I relax, Camberlie Maia?! Maiipit ka sa traffic and we only have half an hour before the event starts!]

"Paano ako maiipit sa traffic if hindi ako sasakay?"

[What?! Shucks, Camberlie! Don't tell me maglalakad ka papunta rito!]

Hindi ko na mapigilan ang matawa because I can now imagine her face habang nagpapalakad-lakad siya doon sa venue at kausap ako. She keeps groaning and I can say na natatakot na ang mga staff doon dahil kapag naaaligaga ang manager ko, naaaligaga na rin sila.

As if artista ako, di ba? Dapat nga siguro nag-artista na lang ako, maganda naman ako.

[Dapat talaga sinundo na kita kaysa maglakad ka papunta dito.]

"Oh, come on." Mababaw akong napairap. "It's just a fifteen minutes walk. Mas matatagalan ako if I take the car."

Sumilip ako sa glass wall ng condo unit ko at tumingin sa labas at sa kalsada sa baba. "Hindi ako mahuhulas if that's what you're thinking. Hindi naman mataas ang araw ngayon kaya hindi masyadong mainit."

[But-]

"Paalis na ako dito. Bye!" Pinatay ko na ang tawag para hindi na niya ako mabubungangaan.

One last glance at the mirror before I walk towards the door of my unit. Hindi ko na kinuha ang car keys ko since I won't use my car today. I can walk papunta sa venue at ganoon din pauwi. Around BGC lang din naman kasi ang venue na pupuntahan ko, so, walking is fine.

And besides, mas masarap kaya maglakad. Kapag naglalakad ka instead of riding a car, bukod sa makakatulong ka sa earth, matuto ka rin sa iba't ibang bagay which is the main reason why I prefer walking lalo na kapag may extra time ako.

On my way to the venue, I couldn't help but to smile as I encounter strangers. I'm always amaze just by looking at different kind of people. Pakiramdam ko nahuhulaan ko na kung anong buhay ang pinagdaraanan nila in just one look.

I mean, malalaman mo naman kasi talaga iyon. Hindi mo man exactly mahulaan, at least you have a hint of what kind of life they were living in.

On your way to anywhere, lagi't lagi, may makakasalubong at makakasabay ka na mga tao. It is up to you if you'll appreciate them, in any means, kahit sabihin mo sa kanila o hindi.

Magkakaibang klase ng tao ang nakakasalubong at nakakasabay ko. May mga nagmamadali at hinahabol ang oras, may mga mabagal ang paglalakad at ninanamnam ang bawat segundo, may mga naglalakad pampalipas ng oras, may mga naglalakad para mag-isip and there are people who just walking around, thinking it will help them to lessen the pain and burden they are secretly carrying.

May mga magkakatrabaho who's on their way to their work, may mga magkakaibigan who wants to hangout somewhere, may pamilya na papunta sa kung saan and just want to enjoy and treat the kids, may mga couple na hindi mapaghiwalay at kung makalingkis sa isa't isa ay akala mo wala nang bukas, may mga estudyante who wanted to treat themselves for something they have accomplished, there are mediocre people looking for a job, and there are normal people just passing by.

And all of them were connected by one thing. Love.

They said people intent to love even it's not their will. People love because their heart chose to. Na hindi pinaplano ang pagmamahal. Hindi pinipili, at hindi pinipilit.

Love will come naturally, when it is the right time to love. There's always the right time to love but sometimes, we love the wrong person.

I believe that there is no wrong time when it comes to love. It's just that, there is a wrong person we love... or loved.

Lahat ng pagmamahal, tama sa oras. Sadyang hindi lang pinagbibigyan ng pagkakataon at ng panahon, dahil mali. Dahil hindi tama. Napuputol at nagtatapos ang pagmamahalan dahil mali kung ipagpapatuloy pa ito.

When we thought it was right, He knew it was wrong, so He made it stop.

And love always comes with pain. Sabi nga nila, hindi mo malalaman na nagmamahal ka kung hindi ka nasasaktan.

Madalas, we lost our peace when we loved someone and it didn't end the way we want it to be, the way our heart will be happy with your partner. We often lose our peace, just because we love.

Missing peace is the hardest thing to find when you, yourself is lost.

Most of the time, we thought we will be found through the love of someone. We will be found by someone who loves us, but it's not always like that.

There's peace in pain. It might be tricky but there is peace in pain, you just have to accept that pain. You have to embrace the pain, let it consume you until you accept it.

And sometimes, that pain you've experienced – that pain you had suffered will lead you to the best version of yourself that the world can offer.

A day will come when we will thank those who hurt us.

Someday, we will be able to thank the ones we once loved and the ones who once hurt us.