𝔾𝕒𝕞𝕖𝕤 (𝕃𝕖𝕖 𝔽𝕖𝕝𝕚𝕩 𝔸𝕟𝕘𝕤𝕥)

~Chapter 2~

well, I wasn't wrong about today.

my "small headache" turned into one that was pounding on the insides of my head. the drive to our dance studio for dance practice was painfully loud. the jokes that were blurted out from jisung's lips were followed with laughter, hurting my ears so badly.

"lixie, you okay? you've been silent this entire ride," chan said, lightly tapping my shoulders.

"mhm, just tired. I'll try to sleep it off." I mumble and put my head on the window, letting its coldness numb my headache for awhile.

"-elix,come on, wake up. we're here." I feel someone shake me awake. I don't remember falling asleep though?

I groan quietly and walk out of the car.

as we were walking through the corridor, a wave off dizziness washed over me, causing me to stumble.

"woah, lix. you okay?" jisung asked, catching me.

"mhm." I answer while trying to stabilise myself.

"lixie, if you're not feeling well you can always skip practice for a day." chan reminded me softly.

"I know, thanks hyung." I slur slightly as the dizziness got worse. at this point, we all just stopped walking. everyone was huddled around me.

"felix, are you sure you can dance? you're really pale." hyunjin asked. I just gave up on trying to answer when my voice failed me so I just nodded slightly, not trying to make my dizziness worse.

"felix? felix! wake up!" was the last thing I heard before my vision went dark.

~timeskip~

I woke up on a white bed with a constant beeping at my ear. I immediately knew it was the hospital. suddenly, the door to my room burst open and my manager stomped in.

"lee yongbok! tell me why on earth would you skip practice just because you fainted? the others now have to work extra hard just to cover up for you! do you know how much of a burden you are? I don't even know what chan saw in you when he chose you to be a part of the group." the manager rolled his eyes and shouted at me, jabbing his pointer finger at my chest.

I felt tears pool in my eyes at his harsh words.

"oh don't cry. now you're a weakling." the manager scoffed before turning on his heel and leaving.

I hug my legs to my chest as I finally allowed my tears to fall from my eyes. after what felt like eternity, I finally cried myself dry. I curled up into a fetal position, wishing to be in sleep's embrace but the only thing I keeping me up was the manager's words.

burden

weakling

you shouldn't even be in this group.

the more they repeated in my mind, the more disoriented they got as my mind started to bend them in the scariest ways.

waste of space.

nobody likes you.

fat.

ugly.

pathetic.

useless.

weak.

I shut my eyes tightly and plug my ears. eventually, the voices died down and I felt darkness engulf me whole. but now, there was this ever-growing emptiness inside of me.

hey loves!

I haven't updated in awhile. but I would like to thank yume_akira for adding this to their reading list. I'll see you in the next chapter, have a good day/afternoon/night!

kisses, Delilah<3