"felix? oh my god, are you even listening to me? you can never do anything right, can you? maybe you should leave the fucking group!" jisung's voice cut through my thoughts, shattering every last piece of my heart.
we both freeze at his words, an undescribable chill settling over us.
"felix-"
i couldn't stand it anymore. at that moment, the only thing i wanted to do was to get out of there, so i did. i threw my headset of and took off, a familiar weight creeping back onto my chest and pressing against my heart.
even as i chocked out sobs, my legs did anything but slow down.
the roof.
run to the roof.
give everyone what they secretly want.
you don't deserve to live.
the screams echoed and bounced off the inner walls of my head while i climbed up the steps with a speed i never knew i even possessed.
i could hear footsteps behind me, as if someone was chasing after me.
someone's following me?
does it mean they care?
they probably just don't want to be blamed for your death.
so that they can say they "tried to stop you".
nobody cares, you know that.
i finally slam open the door to the roof, slightly out if breath. as i slowly made my way to the ledge, my legs shook in anticipation.
do it.
just jump.
the edge is right in front of you.
my breathing quickened as i stepped onto the ledge. suddenly, someone pulled me back with such force that i sent both of us flying backwards, which knocked the wind out of my lungs.
"w-wha...?" as i hacked and choked from the impact, a pair of arms snaked around me, squeezing me tightly.
"don't ever do that again."
"chan hyung?" i slowly regained control over my breathing. "h-how?"
"i saw you sprinting and i worried." hearing him say that made me scoff in disbelief.
"worried? i didn't see or hear you be fucking worried for me when i sprained my ankle, or when i almost cried because if that stupid dance instructor, or when fell outside of the goddamned meeting room. so don't you fucking dare say you're worried." i shoved him off of me, stumbling at how fast i stood up.
just as he opened up his mouth once more, a wave of nausea hit me as i suddenly gagged. i could feel cold sweat dripping down my back as my knees trembled and my vision blurred.
"felix? did you take anything? what's going on?" chan hyung's voice sounded so far away but the muffled words made me realise something.
"shit- i um, i may have taken a little too many painkillers by accident." my voice tremored while i was trying to swallow the lump in my throat, causing it to be bone dry.
"oh shit-"
i blacked out.
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Fanfiction"w-who are you?" "i'm me, felix. i'm your friend." "r-really?" "yes, and let's keep it that way." ... in which lee felix let's the voices control him, not knowing he's letting himself spiral into darkness. the members are a little too late to realiz...
